The Bleeding Heart Finally Caught My Attention

Ephesians 6:12 New International Version (NIV)

¹² For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

I often wish  I could go back to the day when I sold myself the lie that caused me to hate the sound of my voice, despise my tested integrity and reject the opportunities to love whenever I  passed my reflections. I really do. I try so hard to get around my hindrances but, there is always this one question that seems to linger when no one else is around. How can I began to fix what could never be broken in the first place? If you are willing to unlock the secrets to your own heart know that the unlocking comes with a price. The price I had to pay began with the need to tend to my bleeding heart. Happiness is often something we are told we cannot search for. I’ve discovered a different path to that answer. Happiness is something we can search for but, it can only be found from within. In my truth, the heart bursts with forces that can serve or harm our individual universe. My heart was bleeding and the rhythm of its bleeding has caught my full attention.

In my world external judgment was designed by way of the art of show and tell. People are defined by their appearance, we then connect the way they appear to a particular nostalgia and then we place each appearance into a category just so we can accept or reject a person, place, and/or thing. If I am wearing clothing that appears to be dirty then much of the time I will be viewed as homeless or financially inept. I hadn’t realized that I had stepped into the pit of sharp glass of  this reality until I recalled the first “ism” in my life; the first time I began to build the bridge away from self-love and acceptance. Show and Tell taught me that I should, in this order: hate my color, hate my mind, hate my race, hate my image, and hate the audio vibrations that I’ve created in this world. The most heart breaking out of these, I  learned to hate my differences. This incorrect information caused my heart to bleed for ages in a valley where other people got lost with me.  Set free and able to move forward, I now see my world clearer. The ideas in which I’ve collected in my past were just floating words that got caught up in my imagination and as I patch up an already complete heart I am beginning to see the soul of my perfection.

My future looks brighter because it is I who designs the information for my acceptance. The heart is a substance we should never learn to  ignore. The issue with my heart has been resolved and now I am able and willing to see the completion of my hopes and dreams in this life. My heart no longer bleeds for I have allowed healing to take its place. Prepare yourself for the adventure of happiness as you dive deeper into the caves within the ego. If you resonate with me, like and comment below. Follow me on my happiness journey and share with the attached links.

A river flows by the forces behind it, the things we cannot see. Like a river, there are similar forces at work behind the human heart and what a careless tragedy it is when we don’t take the time to tend to our forces?

Miya

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Face to Face with Courage

John 14:27 New International Version (NIV)

²⁷ Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

This morning when I woke up I was full of joy and gratefulness. I sat down at my work computer, as I always do, said my prayers and prepared my heart and mind to be used by God for His Glory. Today was an exceptional day. I learned more of who I am by speaking with my customers. Every time there was some indifference in the conversation I knew that it was something in me that I needed to process with love. I knew that the indifference did not match what God gave me and I knew that how I felt wasn’t contingent upon God’s commands. I used to have small blockages when I wrote my blogs. I would have to research what these blockages could be but, I knew that I had received the same blockages while speaking with my customers. First I asked myself this question, “Miya, what does it feel like when you have these blocks?” And to help me move on instantly I provided a solution, “When you have mental blocks correct your flow point by applying a positive mantra to help correct your thinking.” Most of the mental blocks I’ve had come from fear. When my heart went ablaze in the past I would tell myself that I wasn’t good enough. My correction for fearlessness allows me to accept that courage was part of my birthright.

I work as a Technical Support Representative for a well-known company. One of the greatest benefits of working at my job is that I get to communicate with some really amazing people every day. However, I admit that I didn’t always see everyone I encountered as amazing. How I felt in the mist of confrontation used to limit me spiritually. I used to pray that I would not have to speak with anyone difficult so that I could manage my temper throughout the day. I broke free from that fear by assessing my identity while speaking with my customers. This assessment allowed me to draw in the courage to express love not only for my customers but, also for me. I courageously love, respect, honor, forgive, and offer compassion to me constantly. These offerings of gratitude allow me to fulfill God’s Law and Purpose. I no longer have a problem loving my neighbor for, the sacrifice of mercy is facilitated through my actions.

Day 2 is complete and I have been shown the light of the true definition of courage. Courage manifests when I can authentically speak with love to anyone on the outside of myself. Someone once considered an inconvenience now helps me to be a courageous defender of love. I fulfill the Law because I treat others as I would want myself to be treated.  One customer I spoke with today was extremely apologetic. Initially, I wanted to be short with her but, then I started to really listen so that I could tune into her frequency. I knew that encounters like these were something that I needed to confront. I heard myself in her voice. In my past my nickname could have been Apologetica because I would constantly apologize to people as if I were an inconvenience. Hearing her voice helped me to tap into my voice and by the end of the conversation I was only left with words of encouragement; the advice I would need to hear type of encouragement.  Not only for me but, also for my customer. My customer was not a bother; I am not a bother. I am loved more than I can comprehend and this is why I give insurmountable amounts of love to all I am blessed to encounter, more than I can illustrate in words.

Thank you for reading my blog today. I am happy to say that love requires exercise. The only way we can exercise love is by discovering where we are in the process. First, we must love God and then we must love others as much as we love ourselves. We are all equations of the completion God created. Love seals what has already been completed. If you would like to read more of my content sign up to receive alerts by following my journey of how I find joy through all of life’s conditions. Comment below, like this entry and share with the attached links.

We are all courageously gifted,

Miya

Auto-Pilot

John 8:32 New International Version (NIV)

32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

New International Version (NIV)

This morning while sitting at the kitchen table of a friend’s house I observed my reality with brand my brand new eyes. I pulled out my journal and I began to write about the dream I had last night. It was about this guy whom I’ve had a very low-key crush on for over a year. We hardly talk now but, I still remember his kindness, which is what made him attractive to me. The connection I made with him made me say to the universe Happy, Thank You, More Please. But, he isn’t the basis of my topic. Most of my dreams are intense and when I woke up this morning this dream had been no different. I felt that there was this inner revelation that was screaming at me to release the control of the fear that manipulated my thoughts, words, and actions. I knew that I had to release the former conditions that kept my life on a self-sabotaging auto-pilot trend that relinquished my ability to control my internal factors.

When I hear the word auto-pilot I think of the system that pilots use so they don’t have to manually control the trajectory of the airplane as much. Our bodies are like planes and the words we say are composed of  pilots, co-pilots, stewardesses and passengers. When you don’t acknowledge every word that comes out of your mouth it’s like placing the trinity of your completeness on an auto-pilot that will only guide you towards multiple disastrous destinations. Disasters that cause you to reject the spirits of power, love and peace of mind. Dangers arise when you don’t accept that the power that was given to you at birth. The power that we were all given was that we were born free. And the caveat of our freedom is that we must accept our freedom if we want to walk fully in our purpose.

Now that I am more awake in my surroundings there are aspects of my old life which are drifting away into a reality only made in nightmares and this makes me very happy because the negativity gospel no longer exists for me. Now that I’ve finally accepted that I was made to be a powerful force, I asked myself these questions: How many people live like they are not alive? How many people live in a dream-like state that God did not intend for them, a life where they embedded in their thoughts that all of the external horrors were more relevant than a promising future? How many people live half empty with no one to trust because the one they should trust stares directly into their eyes intensely when they look into the mirror. I am grateful that I have made it past the dark surfaces that once held me back. My former auto-pilot state was something that I had to deeply monitor because I am aware that we are all entangled in a spiritual war. I’ve shifted into riot mode and the Word of God is my riot gear and when I am on auto-pilot faith is what continues to drive me into the right direction.

Leaving my friend’s house I got in my car, turned the ignition, turned off my radio and I decided that I would have a little talk with God about my purpose. I thought of my dream again and its conclusion and decided to recite every persons name and all of my dreams and at the end of each declaration conclude with Happy, Thank You, and More Please.  I’ve tested and proved that gratitude is the melody of faith. Happy, Thank you, More Please to the Universe. Happy, Thank You, More Please for the completion of my positive aspects in 2018. Happy, Thank You, More Please for building my blog community. Happy, Thank you, More Please for reading my New Years Resolution which is; My destiny is fulfilled now. My auto-pilot reminds me how infinite I am and that when I choose to acknowledge life-giving words I am illustrating the faith I have in what I’ve already achieved. This year I’ve designated my auto-pilot to practice forward thinking and with no doubt my uniqueness constantly attracts my hopes and dreams.

Thank you for reading today.  I hope everyone had a safe and Happy New Year. I encourage you to complete your resolutions using forward thinking.  Last night while watching the fireworks after the count-down into 2018  I thought of all that I’ve overcome. The pomp and circumstance of a milestone grants a gift to humanity that promises we don’t have to go back and relive the moments filled with pain and likewise we can’t go back and relive the happy moments either. What we all can do is create future moments now. Every setback should remind you that ultimately you are in control and you can correct all setbacks by acknowledging them and respectfully moving on, so that you don’t give the setbacks any power. Learn to affirm the power you have over the province of your auto-pilot.  Reconcile your differences with the enemy within by acknowledging that its purpose was intended to build strength and keep you in alignment with your assignment.

Happy New Year!

Miya

Sailing to the Beat of My Joy

Birds, I’ve always adored the sound of their morning song. Their high-pitched chirps have an air about them that makes me think of morning dew dissipating from the warmth of the sun as it greets the world over the northern skies. Organisms rising because the star that is teeming with life grants them with the gift of a new day. This is a covenant ordained by God which promises that His works in us are not complete. A new day should be cultivated mentally when the light of day hits our eyes but, from where I stand this concept was not always comprehensible for me. A new day for me used to mean that the narrative of my yesterday had full authority over my present. What this did was repeat the cycle of abuse over and over like a broken record, hindering the future I hoped for. I have traveled through dark and dry places of my own devices. I once lived in a fantasy world where I was the victim of a well thought out conspiracy which existed before my time.  This conspiracy was the narrative of the boat I was sailing on which always promised impending doom was always lurking.

The devil wants us to believe that God doesn’t love us and that we are not worthy of God’s unconditional forgiveness. Now that those lies are all said and done I rejoice because God has given me beauty for ashes. In my journey I’ve learned compassion, forgiveness, unwavering love, and the gift of finding joy through any storm. I’ve also learned about accountability, confidence and one of the best for me; my power. God grants us the gift of creating our narrative through faith. I’ve been able to see for myself the multitude of reflections from within that argued against this concept: Life and Death lie in the power of the tongue. We take for granted the words we say out of our mouths. For several weeks I have been meditating on what I am accountable for. It isn’t so complicated but, when you have practiced carelessness in your dialogs it tends to wash over the functionality of your brain. My brain imbedded the message of discontentment. As a result, my speech designated my walk and this realization is where the blessings began for me.

I‘ve reached a pivotal moment on the tightrope of my former self. I was so afraid to let go and that fear formerly held back the person writing this Blog today.

Ephesians 4:22-24 New International Version (NIV)

²² You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; ²³ to be made new in the attitude of your minds; ²⁴ and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

There is beauty in every journey. I affirm that the best parts of my journey are linked to a promise. I see what God has promised and I no longer attempt to raise the dead. There is no afterthought or hindrance for I only acknowledge that Gods words are true and just. The full armor of God shields us from what we declare we are not worthy of through the devises of the devil. Understand that we are always under spiritual attack and let this knowledge grants you with the ability to see the premise of a responsibility bestowed upon you that you are to move mountains by the power of your faith. Love yourself unconditionally in the process of taking control of your narrative. Remember that we all must breakthrough conditional confirmations that have been collected by memories of our past. Who you are is the evidence of where we’ve been but, it doesn’t have to be where you are going. Remember that the people you connect with validates your current identity. If you don’t like what you see change the script inside of you and set the sails towards your purpose.

Thank you for reading my blog entry today. The other night I had a dream regarding a promise. A woman came to me on my birthday singing a tune I did not recognize. In the dream my house was filled with my family and friends. When the girl walked through my front door singing a happy birthday refrain of her own that was made only for me I became frightened. The fear I felt matched the vibrations of what I’ve felt consciously when the Spirit of God is present in my thoughts, words and actions. I thought I was going to die. She was dressed in a pure white dress and her eyes were bold resembling a deep glistening blue ocean. I was beginning to fear that my life was drawing towards a close but, the girl walked up to me and presented three gifts before me and that’s when she began to speak in terms I could comprehend.  She said to me that the battle has been won and the time has come for me to receive the positive fruits of what I have endured. My blessings are uniquely tailored for me. There is so much I had to experience in order to connect with what was true. I am grateful for the dust but, that dust serves only one purpose and that is to illustrate for me that I am a survivor and I am a new person who believes in the power of the Holy Spirit.

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The future is determined by the words we broadcast; the words that become our narrative

Miya

The Bridges We Build Away From Love

Luke 10:27 New International Version (NIV)

²⁷ He answered, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’

All doubt must banish if we are to love perfectly. When I read this biblical text I evaluate its meaning by providing an alternative for the requests made to the people. I review everything I see on the surface and then I look inward and upward towards God to understand the lesson. Love is a verb we overly complicate. We reject ourselves when we see other people rejecting us and this adds further complication to a word that has no conditions at all. Love actively connects what we call imperfection. We are perfectly made beings that reject the benefits of love but, that statement is not attached to our true identity. Love really has no boundaries but, there is something in us that pulls us away from fully connecting with the responsibility of how we should treat one another. As we move closer towards Christmas I’ve been meditating on how I have chosen not to love. Moving past what I’ve chosen I have also been creating a positive space so that I can actively love God and love my brothers and sisters as I love myself.

I didn’t always love myself. My life was a tragedy and now I take full responsibility for the role I played in my past disappointments. I have been able to release a multitude of conversations I formerly had with myself which affected my ability to love. I no longer care for rehashing old beliefs for that would only further support and validate restriction. True love is when you can look at your heart, soul and mind and then say to yourself that you are perfect. Initially I didn’t accept that I was perfect for, I was so heavily conditioned that I could not see what was true. I had to see that God and I were one and the same and the only thing that separates me and my Father in Heaven is my unwillingness to accept what He declares as truth. For several days I have been attacking every negative thought with love and forgiveness. I create sessions where I visualize God’s judgment in the scene of a courtroom. When God requests from me to have an answer for why I have not loved I can vibrationally sense the emotional defense mechanism I designed long ago. The turning point of my trail materializes when my brand new eyes confront every evil and sinful thought. God grants us the generosity of the gift called love. With His love I am able to correct the negative thought patterns that are not conducive for my purpose. I am able to unapologetically love myself.

I didn’t always understand what it meant to truly love God and love my neighbor’s as I love myself but, now I am beginning to understand. I’ve discovered that we are all in some way guilty of building bridges away from one another because we don’t understand what love is. We build bridges by itemizing the love we have for one another. I used to have trouble understanding why we did this because I’ve learned from God that love is this:

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 New Living Translation (NLT)

⁴ Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud ⁵ or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. ⁶ It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. ⁷ Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

 

Through trial and error I’ve learned that love is an internal manifestation that creates an outward experience. In order to love it is necessary for us to be more kind, patient, content, sacrificial and unconditional with ourselves. This means that we have to stop producing conditional beliefs that limit our ability to do what God has called us to do. I once defined love using the fabrications I made up in my mind. I have discovered the arc of love through the path of the release of old habits. I put on the Full Armor of God and His Armor propels me into a space where I can love as He commands.

Today, activate the love of Christ so that the vines that lead us to our truest purpose cultivate the Armor of God. His Amor annihilates the bridges that we inadvertently built to separate us from loving ourselves, loving others and primarily loving Him. Thank you for reading my blog today. I am grateful to all who were touched by this message. Follow me on this journey to achieve happiness, like this post, comment and share with the links below.

Challenge:

I am sure we have all heard people say, “When you burn bridges, you burn relationships.” I am asking you to think of ways to change what that means to you so that it positively affects your relationships with the people you believe have offended you. Allow love to transform emotional discord into forgiveness because love keeps no records of wrong.

Have a Merry Christmas!

Miya

Mind Transformation

Romans 12:2 New International Version (NIV)

² Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

When I was a child I can remember being asked what came first the chicken or the egg. I can recall considering the chicken came first because the chicken was the evidence of everything you could see. I can remember thinking that this was an unnecessary question. Chickens lay eggs so, in my opinion I believed that what I did see was the paramount observation of truth. It was the most logical explanation. I’ve discovered for myself that the chicken and the egg question is a matter of faith. Now that I am an adult I believe the egg was the product of thought. That thought transpired into words and those words transformed into substance. Why is it so hard to remain consistent in the walk of faith? Was a question I once inquired from within much of the time when I failed to meet my own expectations. What I didn’t realize I was doing, I was affirming my faithlessness because everything I saw or experienced was validated by an inner feeling, or an auto-suggestion. Words are transformative. In an instant what we say produces the evidence which confirms our preexisting beliefs. We all have the power to mold our minds in new ways we may have never thought were possible.

I love this biblical text. Its premise of life-giving words instruct us to live life outside of conformity and allows us to see that life begins in the mind. Nothing external can ever give life indefinitely. As I mentioned everything external is the evidence of what we affirmed with faith. I once believed that faith was attached to all things good and this is far from the truth. Maybe I missed a lesson or two when I attended Catholic school on the subject of faith. According to Dictionary.com faith is the confidence or trust in a person or thing: Faith in another’s ability. Faith is the tangible thing that our spirits execute, but the predecessor of faith is executed by the conscious mind for it defines what we believe as good or bad and mystically we are able to validate what is true or false. The beauty of thought is that we all have the ability to decide which life we want. I once lived circumstantially if I am being honest with myself the breakthrough has allowed me to prevail. The way I finalize negative patterns I know that my conditioning must be tamed. I once allowed external forces to decide how I felt and what I thought. When the implementation of my reactions lead to something good I compartmentalized my reactions. I gave myself instructions on how I should feel when someone treated me poorly, for example.

The majority of my life I instructed myself to harness in the power of the experience of hard times. I lived the life of a victim. In my spiritual walk and in every word I cast vocally I played out the messages for people to feel bad for me, pity me, desert me, and treat me as if I had no value. In all I receive I see my reflection. I added these words to my daily affirmations for it reminds me where I am and the choice I have to either continue as I see my reflection or actively make a change. I long to be sublimely happy while my predestined mindset conveys me to my purpose. Recently I was asked the question, “What would happiness look like for me?” I initially didn’t know how to respond. I wanted to smile but, didn’t think of what actually would make me happy. I had to dig deep and when I did I could see my independence. My story began to renovate instantaneously because now I can only see my accomplishments.

Happiness involves me looking out of my window at the San Francisco Bridge while I write my daily blogs to inspire those who are stifled with old, limited beliefs. I see my words effecting my readers in a positive way for I preach that we all have the power to change our circumstances and that we don’t have to allow circumstances to affect our being. I know from experience that it can be a challenge to accept this as truth. I habitually collected the details of failure and wanted to argue with the truth which is that I am perfect, complete and wonderfully made in the image of God. We were all born to purport a prosperous life. I heavily reserve my right to continuously report the message of the power we hold because from experience old beliefs challenge our intent. As quoted by Oprah during her Super Soul Conversations Podcast, “One of the most valuable gifts you can give yourself is time, taking time to be more fully present. Your journey to become more inspired and connected to the deeper world around us starts right now.” It is my wish that everyone receiving these words open up the floodgates of time. Time that we have the authority to give ourselves. So, dear brothers and sisters make a commitment to renew your mind with life.

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Let the Transformation Begin Today!

Miya

How the War was Won

2 Chronicles 20:17 New International Version (NIV)

¹⁷ You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.’”

Dead things ripped their way throughout the Kingdom of Miyatropolis killing what little light that did remain after the war was nearing an end. The darkness that was once promised to perish throughout infinity never came. She was nearing her end of her child-bearing years and for this she had succumb to the dark ruler and key holder of false illumination. She shrugged tremendously and decided that those promises that were presented by the image of a tiny seed whose light was delightfully bright, seemed to have no magic in it at all. Darkness has a powerful mindset and that is to win. This is my battle, this is my song, and this is the story of how I conquered the evil that lingers inside of us all.

Though we can’t see it we are at war with ourselves. We attack our character and like watching a television program our lives play out right before us… right before me. Sight, touch, sound, and taste are what connects us to what we can see. What we can’t see is always challenged. I once believed we were designed to live with brokenness. I once felt that what I went through had to determine my level of financial success. The pain, the upsets, the low self-esteem that I’ve collected from my past played out before me and my daily intent became past life experiences. I have paid my dues in this spiritual war. Those scars burn deep inside of me and it wasn’t until I turned it around into a story that I was able to see the victory.

Back inside the Kingdom of Miyatropolis the young heart was aging. The dark creatures that lurked through the caverns had begun to settle down. Myta, the Dark Ruler had won in his eyes so, he went off to plan for the final takeover. Just another victory for the agents of transgression. There were only shreds left of the Kingdom that remained and then something brilliant arose. The seed began to attach itself to the walls like a liquid and then it began digging its way deep into the foundations of Miyatropolis so deep that its vines began to rapidly restore a near hopeless dominion. The Dark Ruler devised a plan in secret and the key target was to destroy the seed so that the heart of the Kingdom would never know what it was capable of which is, limitations don’t exist because the battle is already won. The seed uprooted into a powerful figure. His eyes were filled with glorious light more brilliant than anyone could ever comprehend. This light brought life and banished the devices of the Dark Ruler. In the end when the Evil Ruler, Myta, had succumb to this loving power he was forgiven. The powerful Lord spoke unto the Kingdom and out of his mouth all was restored. Myta had asked why he was pardoned and what this Lord of Lords name was. The Lord looked up with a blazing glare and declared, “You were saved because you will continue to help build strength in the Kingdom my Father has prepared. Because of your hatred you will never know me and your citizenship will never be welcomed in Miyatropolis.”    Hope and life were restored to the Kingdom. Though there were many battles after this one, the permeated faith of Miyatropolis majestically transformed every challenge into an instant victory.

Now that I’ve had time to meditate on the war inside I affirm that my beliefs are a subconscious experience which manifests immediately. This short story allowed me to sum up the inner turmoil that I once gave permission to control my destiny in a negative way. Ultimately we do control our destiny. Some people run from financial success due to their fear of turning into a narcissistic monster. I was once in that category with some people. I can courageously fill my life with purpose and some things that I used to view as demeaning like being financially prosperous, is now attached to my abundance. My history has become my shiny tools that I proudly wear as a victory, not a defeat. We truly are more than conquerors and I think this so because I’ve gone through a mighty battle and I’ve graciously lived to tell my tale of triumph. I’m living and pushing everyday creating the best life experience with each breath that I take. Who I was yesterday does not define who I am today. Who I was yesterday defines what I’ve conquered. Who I am tomorrow is designed today. The joke to me in this logic is that I’ve been doing this since my conscious level of awareness.

Thank you for visiting my blog today. As you inhale and exhale be careful to count your blessings by realizing your every breath is faith in action. Follow the Happy Nappy Project, like this post, leave a comment and share with the links below.

Be Authentically you!

Miya

Meditations on Who I Serve

 

 

Matthew 6:24 New International Version (NIV)

²⁴ “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.

On the surface I displayed the internal war which remained dominate in my heart and mind. Externally those I aligned with I used to blame for mistreating me. In truth however, it was me who was the orchestrator of my symphony. Over the weekend I did a lot of meditating with the intentions of seeing how I played the role at self-sabotaging my life. When I began to feel great discomfort in my heart I gave it a name and called it fear. I questioned myself by saying, “What am I so afraid of?” The laundry list of what and or who I was afraid of began piling up. I had come to the conclusion that there have been many times where I gave negative information power and that power ingrained in my belief system. I gave power to emotions that carried the spirit of depression and low self-esteem. I have come to a prevailing revelation, one I’ve danced with before; I create my ultimate reality. There seems to be two sides in which we have the power and authority to choose, life or death.

I affirm that we all battle with different spirits. We live in a society where the dominate reality implements subtle concepts which downloads tons of information for the human brain to consider. However, it is our perception which governs our dominate reality. This is a truth which was very hard for me to digest because I was so used to every cause ruling my every effect. I am the first to hold myself accountable for my diverse views because how I view my outer reality tells me everything I need to know about myself. The great news about knowing who you are is that we have the power to change how we think and how we feel by surveying life-giving or life-taking words before they plunder out of our mouths.

Philippians  4:8 New International Version (NIV)

⁸ Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

We are currently in the season of giving. The spirit of Christmas brings forth joy and peace. Christ gave his life and around this time we are able to experience the gift of peace which passes all understanding. When we give gifts to one another there is an exchange of love, gratitude and humility. My personal gift to give this season is displayed through my actions when I share what I what strikes my passion and that is the determination that we can find joy through all of life’s ups and downs.  There is a great connection to freedom when we know that we have the authority to change our lives from within. Follow the Happy Nappy Project, like this post, comment and share with the links below.

Walk steadily with your head held high using faith as your guide

Miya

The Stronghold of Doubt Cast Over Me

Matthew 21:21 New International Version (NIV)

²¹ Jesus replied, “Truly I tell you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and it will be done.

There are so many strongholds placed on my spirit daily. Doubt and fear have always seemed to conquer my actions and the force of the two stir constantly inside of me. How I feel at this present moment makes me think about what Paul wrote in Romans 7:15, “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.” I literally hate that fear and doubt sometimes feel like uncontrollable emotions. Lack of faith is a sin against God. God’s word teaches us to fear not and to not doubt, these are two emotions that we can control. I struggle with allowing God to take full control over my weaknesses. I have concluded that it is Christ who makes me strong. When I am weak I must hand my cross over to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I also must remain spiritually fed in his word and for the sake of encouragement I must speak life into every shadow I face.

I used to heavily convince myself that I was punished by God for every sin I’ve ever committed. Every time I was on the right track the road would grow narrow and I fell away from God’s grace. I lost my faith in God and I blamed Him for my misery. Even today I struggle with my unbelief. After I lost everything I owned including the life of my son I was forced to move back in with my parents. For years I felt like a burden because when my depression surfaced I would go to a place that was very hard to pull myself out of. As a result I tried to commit suicide because I believed God hated everything about me. All around me friends and family members would be blessed while I was trapped in a reality where everything was taken from me. It is difficult for me to express how it feels to be an outcast but, I describe it as feeling unloved and unwanted and as a result to those feelings I start to believe the forces of the entire world are against me.

What lifts me back up is when I declare thankfulness to God. I also think of my nephew and how I would feel if he had similar feelings. With Gods guidance I began to thank God for the removal of a spirit that He did not give to me in the first place. I speak over my own thoughts and combat the negative thoughts with the word of God. I believe that God allows me to have these feelings not because He doesn’t love me but, because he wants to show me that I am not in alignment with His promises and He has given me the authority to speak His word over the dark forces that go against me. God pulls me back in when fear and doubt begin to hinder me and I thank Him for this.

When you are afraid or when you have doubts let that be a reminder that those feelings are not a gifted spirit from God but, of the devil. God gives us the authority to cast out negative spirits. Fear and Doubt are apart of human nature and our relationship with sin but, Thanks be to Jesus Christ we don’t have to stop at that connection. We are set free and given the authority to speak over the devil and over ourselves. Encouragement is only a challenge when you don’t know the power you are born with. God will guide you back into his loving grace if you allow Him. I want to encourage anyone who may be dealing with depression or thoughts of suicide. How you feel is valid but, the only way to pull yourself up is to know your power! Know that if you are alive it is not the end, there is purpose in your situation and I believe that the God I know that rains on the just and unjust will see that you prosper. Have faith and be courageous as you walk through the valley of the shadow of death.

Be Bold,

Miya

The Tribe I Belong To

Isaiah 43:1 New International Version (NIV)

Israel’s Only Savior

43 But now, this is what the Lord says—     he who created you, Jacob,     he who formed you, Israel: “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;     I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

Exemplifying trust in God has been a great and challenging journey. I’ve read biblical text like a midnight train. When I did this I expected God to work for me and for all of my cares to be cast into a furnace. I’ve tested God many times just so he could prove how much he loved me. I can remember days not so long ago when I used to wake up and immediately question God’s loyalty instead of giving him proper praise. “Why God?” was the constant outcry that I poured out of my heart many times. God has said, “No”, an insurmountable amount of times that, like a child, I stomped my feet and was not willing to accept that my will and God’s Will were similar to oil and water.

I remember when I was in my early 20’s God spoke to me and He said,

“I have a different plan for your life but, I will allow you to stray away. Remember I love you and I know you will return to me with a story to tell. I will be waiting with open arms and a forgiving heart.”

When I first heard this I thought that I was losing sense of the reality I built with God. I believed in my heart that I would never discount the friendship that I assembled with the Holy Spirit. Once released into the wilderness I lost my way and placed my trust in God’s hatred towards me. When relationships or places of employment were not right for me it was God who blocked any harm that may have risen from the situations and/or people. God’s constraints on his blessings worked out in his favor the day I surrendered my all to Him. In the spirit of truth I am lead to bless the Lord and today I want to discuss about the tribe I belong to.

Whenever I think of the word Tribe I see a group of indigenous people working together to love and protect an unspoken covenant. My family was built on the gospel of truth so, it is highly anticipated that the devil would try very hard to deceive those who belong to God. When I really became of the world I thought that God was supposed to swoop in and pull me out of my own mess by launching me into a paradise provided in this life. I thought that my enemies would see me and be put to shame. God saw it differently however for, I was left to contemplate every sin.  Without God I can do nothing. I can’t write, sing, speak freely with power, praise Him and all of my external relationships are null and void. My alignment with sin nearly cost my life. But, thanks be to God for He has enlightened me with the truth that I belong to Him alone. His ownership is not something that I can run from nor do I want to any longer. The tribe of a Gentile is the lineage I claim.

I fought with God when I wanted relationships to work out in my favor. I consistently cried when people had to be shown an exit because either I was no good for them or they were no good for me, the constituents have no honor because it was all according to God’s Will. God would rather I be alone than live one day without me praising His name and I bless my Father for this. I am overjoyed that my negative patterns did not have the power to destroy me. When you are called for a specific purpose God will stand between us and the object of our affection. God truly is a jealous God and we don’t always understand His methods but, all of our mess, all of our worries, all of our destructive efforts work out for a greater good. I surrender all to the tribe I belong to.

Thank you for visiting and reading today. I’ve always had the inner belief that believers and non-believers all have a purpose. As a member of the Christian faith I recognize and accept with joy that God causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous (Mark 5:45 NIV). Access to His abundance does not mean that the troubles of the world will be left behind. If life seems to be on a continuous downward spiral consider trusting in a God who offers assurance of a paradise and the gift of the Holy Spirit to help us through the hard times. Always remember that the difficulties we face are there to build something new in us. It is our choice to follow ways that lead to artificial abundance, our way, or concrete infinite abundance, God’s way. For me, the choice wasn’t easy but, I would rather live having nothing loving God than live being disconnected from God.

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Live United in Faith,

Miya