2 Timothy 1:7 New International Version (NIV)
7 For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.
It bewilders me that I used to believe in the lies that swirled around in my mind. I settled with thoughts of lack and inadequacy. I allowed the devil to slander my beliefs and I took to heart that I was not enough. “Greater is he that is in me than he that is of the world” (1 John 4:4) and I know from scripture that the one that is of the world is Satan for Jesus states: NLT “I don’t have much more time to talk to you, because the ruler of this world approaches. He has no power over me.” Last night before going to bed I was certainly attacked by the adversary. The pugnacity was different because I saw through a different lens my old actions. From a different perspective I saw myself how I believe God sees me when I am under spiritual attack. God has gifted his people with the Holy Spirit of which his gifts befall these benefits: power, love and self-discipline.
Last night I was sitting in my bed listening to an awesome internet radio show facilitated by two of my co-workers. While listening I began to reflect on how I used to handle situations. As I already stated, I saw myself how God assesses me. I could feel the love and forgiveness pour out towards me when I thought that I was not pretty or smart. I literally reviewed, as in considered, all of my thought processes and acts of low self-esteem. Now I have a conclusion and that is, my path with God is one of an abundance of love. God truly does call on those who are weak and I humbly take heed to His wise counsel. I have been lied to by the enemy, by the devil, for much of my life. I took full responsibility for the years I believed that I was predestined to fail. My flesh may be weak but, it is God who has saved me and gives me strength. With the gifts God gives me I am able to say with power, “Get behind me Satan, You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns” (Matthew 16:23).
The devil in all his craftiness used where I fell short in hopes that I would never attain the life God has for me. I blamed myself for how I felt and settled into my own filthy thoughts. Credit to the devil I once thought that I could save myself and that God was not real, at one point in my life. God spoke loud and clear each time I fell from His grace. I trusted my flesh and the results were damaging that’s why I can say with Truth that ONLY GOD can save me. Not a man, not my family, not my friends, not the money in my bank account, not the way I look, not the way I speak and contemplate (Though I was blessed with a beautiful mind), not myself, it is ONLY GOD who has authority over my fate. I know that I was told a lie because I can turn around and see God’s promises ahead of me and feel His forgiveness behind me.
Bless and keep these words I say as a living witness of God’s grace. Thank you for reading my entry today. Follow the Happiness Project, like this post, leave your comments and share with the links below.