Dark Night, We Meet Again!

The Dark Knight of the Soul

The first thing I thought about when I woke up this morning was how angry I was yesterday. I “let the sun go down on my wrath” after years of practice. The events that transpired came from the shame and hatred I’ve felt towards myself when I disappointed the people I cared about. Shame manifested in unique ways through my experiences in the real world. I still look in the mirror sometimes to confirm what I’ve heard from many strangers, family members, and people that I thought were friends, “You’re Ugly”, “I didn’t notice your face without makeup” or, “Is that a man?”, ‘Why do you have that gap?”,”I thought you were your sister’s mom”, “they don’t do favors for people that look like us”, a former co-worker had said to me while waiting to order food in our cafeteria. Their words joined forces and created a monstrous echo that tells me I am not worthy or good enough. When I attempt to step outside my comfort zone, a place where the noise phases out and peace prevails, those voices speak louder than my sanity can handle. Normally my first thoughts are to run by indulging in irresponsible behavior but, I don’t want to feel this way anymore.

Life is but an adventure in which we learn how to become one with rourselves with the help of the dark night of the soul. The dark night will challenge our ego and force us to confront all the things that keep us from progressing on the journey through life. The Dark night has been nudging me for a long time saying, “It’s time to let go of what no longer spiritually serves you,” and to,“ irrevocably give yourself grace and love.” I will never be what others expect of me. Real life is the opposite of what the world accepts and expects. How someone else is doing isn’t a real comparison to the story of your life. So far I have learned that gratitude is the most important tool to combat oppression. What I don’t have or how I look is nothing in comparison for all I do have.

 I am grateful to be 42 years of age and have lived through hardships that blessed me with my beautiful and brilliant daughter. I love my family, I appreciate the friends I do have, I value my peace because it is the space where magic happens, and I am grateful for the gifts I enjoy pursuing. All of these things are enough because I know that my gratitude will increase exponentially when I count my blessings.The dark night has been teaching me to give thanks to the pain because it allows me to grow into someone I’ll always be proud of instead of becoming someone I will one day be proud of. Always remember that life is a beautiful journey written by you. The dark night is challenging you to be in this world but not of it so that you can make your story an epic one. 

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The Bleeding Heart Finally Caught My Attention

Ephesians 6:12 New International Version (NIV)

¹² For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

I often wish  I could go back to the day when I sold myself the lie that caused me to hate the sound of my voice, despise my tested integrity and reject the opportunities to love whenever I  passed my reflections. I really do. I try so hard to get around my hindrances but, there is always this one question that seems to linger when no one else is around. How can I began to fix what could never be broken in the first place? If you are willing to unlock the secrets to your own heart know that the unlocking comes with a price. The price I had to pay began with the need to tend to my bleeding heart. Happiness is often something we are told we cannot search for. I’ve discovered a different path to that answer. Happiness is something we can search for but, it can only be found from within. In my truth, the heart bursts with forces that can serve or harm our individual universe. My heart was bleeding and the rhythm of its bleeding has caught my full attention.

In my world external judgment was designed by way of the art of show and tell. People are defined by their appearance, we then connect the way they appear to a particular nostalgia and then we place each appearance into a category just so we can accept or reject a person, place, and/or thing. If I am wearing clothing that appears to be dirty then much of the time I will be viewed as homeless or financially inept. I hadn’t realized that I had stepped into the pit of sharp glass of  this reality until I recalled the first “ism” in my life; the first time I began to build the bridge away from self-love and acceptance. Show and Tell taught me that I should, in this order: hate my color, hate my mind, hate my race, hate my image, and hate the audio vibrations that I’ve created in this world. The most heart breaking out of these, I  learned to hate my differences. This incorrect information caused my heart to bleed for ages in a valley where other people got lost with me.  Set free and able to move forward, I now see my world clearer. The ideas in which I’ve collected in my past were just floating words that got caught up in my imagination and as I patch up an already complete heart I am beginning to see the soul of my perfection.

My future looks brighter because it is I who designs the information for my acceptance. The heart is a substance we should never learn to  ignore. The issue with my heart has been resolved and now I am able and willing to see the completion of my hopes and dreams in this life. My heart no longer bleeds for I have allowed healing to take its place. Prepare yourself for the adventure of happiness as you dive deeper into the caves within the ego. If you resonate with me, like and comment below. Follow me on my happiness journey and share with the attached links.

A river flows by the forces behind it, the things we cannot see. Like a river, there are similar forces at work behind the human heart and what a careless tragedy it is when we don’t take the time to tend to our forces?

Miya

Auto-Pilot

John 8:32 New International Version (NIV)

32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

New International Version (NIV)

This morning while sitting at the kitchen table of a friend’s house I observed my reality with brand my brand new eyes. I pulled out my journal and I began to write about the dream I had last night. It was about this guy whom I’ve had a very low-key crush on for over a year. We hardly talk now but, I still remember his kindness, which is what made him attractive to me. The connection I made with him made me say to the universe Happy, Thank You, More Please. But, he isn’t the basis of my topic. Most of my dreams are intense and when I woke up this morning this dream had been no different. I felt that there was this inner revelation that was screaming at me to release the control of the fear that manipulated my thoughts, words, and actions. I knew that I had to release the former conditions that kept my life on a self-sabotaging auto-pilot trend that relinquished my ability to control my internal factors.

When I hear the word auto-pilot I think of the system that pilots use so they don’t have to manually control the trajectory of the airplane as much. Our bodies are like planes and the words we say are composed of  pilots, co-pilots, stewardesses and passengers. When you don’t acknowledge every word that comes out of your mouth it’s like placing the trinity of your completeness on an auto-pilot that will only guide you towards multiple disastrous destinations. Disasters that cause you to reject the spirits of power, love and peace of mind. Dangers arise when you don’t accept that the power that was given to you at birth. The power that we were all given was that we were born free. And the caveat of our freedom is that we must accept our freedom if we want to walk fully in our purpose.

Now that I am more awake in my surroundings there are aspects of my old life which are drifting away into a reality only made in nightmares and this makes me very happy because the negativity gospel no longer exists for me. Now that I’ve finally accepted that I was made to be a powerful force, I asked myself these questions: How many people live like they are not alive? How many people live in a dream-like state that God did not intend for them, a life where they embedded in their thoughts that all of the external horrors were more relevant than a promising future? How many people live half empty with no one to trust because the one they should trust stares directly into their eyes intensely when they look into the mirror. I am grateful that I have made it past the dark surfaces that once held me back. My former auto-pilot state was something that I had to deeply monitor because I am aware that we are all entangled in a spiritual war. I’ve shifted into riot mode and the Word of God is my riot gear and when I am on auto-pilot faith is what continues to drive me into the right direction.

Leaving my friend’s house I got in my car, turned the ignition, turned off my radio and I decided that I would have a little talk with God about my purpose. I thought of my dream again and its conclusion and decided to recite every persons name and all of my dreams and at the end of each declaration conclude with Happy, Thank You, and More Please.  I’ve tested and proved that gratitude is the melody of faith. Happy, Thank you, More Please to the Universe. Happy, Thank You, More Please for the completion of my positive aspects in 2018. Happy, Thank You, More Please for building my blog community. Happy, Thank you, More Please for reading my New Years Resolution which is; My destiny is fulfilled now. My auto-pilot reminds me how infinite I am and that when I choose to acknowledge life-giving words I am illustrating the faith I have in what I’ve already achieved. This year I’ve designated my auto-pilot to practice forward thinking and with no doubt my uniqueness constantly attracts my hopes and dreams.

Thank you for reading today.  I hope everyone had a safe and Happy New Year. I encourage you to complete your resolutions using forward thinking.  Last night while watching the fireworks after the count-down into 2018  I thought of all that I’ve overcome. The pomp and circumstance of a milestone grants a gift to humanity that promises we don’t have to go back and relive the moments filled with pain and likewise we can’t go back and relive the happy moments either. What we all can do is create future moments now. Every setback should remind you that ultimately you are in control and you can correct all setbacks by acknowledging them and respectfully moving on, so that you don’t give the setbacks any power. Learn to affirm the power you have over the province of your auto-pilot.  Reconcile your differences with the enemy within by acknowledging that its purpose was intended to build strength and keep you in alignment with your assignment.

Happy New Year!

Miya

Mind Transformation

Romans 12:2 New International Version (NIV)

² Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

When I was a child I can remember being asked what came first the chicken or the egg. I can recall considering the chicken came first because the chicken was the evidence of everything you could see. I can remember thinking that this was an unnecessary question. Chickens lay eggs so, in my opinion I believed that what I did see was the paramount observation of truth. It was the most logical explanation. I’ve discovered for myself that the chicken and the egg question is a matter of faith. Now that I am an adult I believe the egg was the product of thought. That thought transpired into words and those words transformed into substance. Why is it so hard to remain consistent in the walk of faith? Was a question I once inquired from within much of the time when I failed to meet my own expectations. What I didn’t realize I was doing, I was affirming my faithlessness because everything I saw or experienced was validated by an inner feeling, or an auto-suggestion. Words are transformative. In an instant what we say produces the evidence which confirms our preexisting beliefs. We all have the power to mold our minds in new ways we may have never thought were possible.

I love this biblical text. Its premise of life-giving words instruct us to live life outside of conformity and allows us to see that life begins in the mind. Nothing external can ever give life indefinitely. As I mentioned everything external is the evidence of what we affirmed with faith. I once believed that faith was attached to all things good and this is far from the truth. Maybe I missed a lesson or two when I attended Catholic school on the subject of faith. According to Dictionary.com faith is the confidence or trust in a person or thing: Faith in another’s ability. Faith is the tangible thing that our spirits execute, but the predecessor of faith is executed by the conscious mind for it defines what we believe as good or bad and mystically we are able to validate what is true or false. The beauty of thought is that we all have the ability to decide which life we want. I once lived circumstantially if I am being honest with myself the breakthrough has allowed me to prevail. The way I finalize negative patterns I know that my conditioning must be tamed. I once allowed external forces to decide how I felt and what I thought. When the implementation of my reactions lead to something good I compartmentalized my reactions. I gave myself instructions on how I should feel when someone treated me poorly, for example.

The majority of my life I instructed myself to harness in the power of the experience of hard times. I lived the life of a victim. In my spiritual walk and in every word I cast vocally I played out the messages for people to feel bad for me, pity me, desert me, and treat me as if I had no value. In all I receive I see my reflection. I added these words to my daily affirmations for it reminds me where I am and the choice I have to either continue as I see my reflection or actively make a change. I long to be sublimely happy while my predestined mindset conveys me to my purpose. Recently I was asked the question, “What would happiness look like for me?” I initially didn’t know how to respond. I wanted to smile but, didn’t think of what actually would make me happy. I had to dig deep and when I did I could see my independence. My story began to renovate instantaneously because now I can only see my accomplishments.

Happiness involves me looking out of my window at the San Francisco Bridge while I write my daily blogs to inspire those who are stifled with old, limited beliefs. I see my words effecting my readers in a positive way for I preach that we all have the power to change our circumstances and that we don’t have to allow circumstances to affect our being. I know from experience that it can be a challenge to accept this as truth. I habitually collected the details of failure and wanted to argue with the truth which is that I am perfect, complete and wonderfully made in the image of God. We were all born to purport a prosperous life. I heavily reserve my right to continuously report the message of the power we hold because from experience old beliefs challenge our intent. As quoted by Oprah during her Super Soul Conversations Podcast, “One of the most valuable gifts you can give yourself is time, taking time to be more fully present. Your journey to become more inspired and connected to the deeper world around us starts right now.” It is my wish that everyone receiving these words open up the floodgates of time. Time that we have the authority to give ourselves. So, dear brothers and sisters make a commitment to renew your mind with life.

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Let the Transformation Begin Today!

Miya

What I Choose

This morning I was listening to a song by one of my favorite bands, Forget the Lies by Quietdrive. I have been on a downward spiral in regards to my personal success. My turn-around began yesterday when I talked to my cousin. The reason for my journey for finding joy through all things was because I wanted to be able to overcome the lies that I’ve lived with for most of my life. My cousin told me that these lies were only conversations and what matters in the end are my intentions. Nearly in tears while speaking with her I reviewed so many demons that I’ve allowed to conquer my mind. I’ve declared countlessly that I was never enough and I let my past thoughts rule my every thought process. In the song the lead singer magnificently belts out lyrics that seem to hit every vibration of what is true. In the Bible Paul writes:

Philippians 4:8 New International Version (NIV)

⁸ Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

This Bible verse directs you to the storehouse of how we should handle matters of depression, anxiety, bi-polar disorder, low self-esteem, suicidal thoughts, illness, and all confrontations against things that are true. Today I would like to discuss what I choose.

Proverbs 18:21 New International Version (NIV)

²¹ The tongue has the power of life and death,
and those who love it will eat its fruit.

 

This is a biblical verse that I meditate on when things are going well in my life but, not so much through hard times. I believe that this verse is intended for the difficulties we face and it gives us the manual on how we respond initially to hardships. Everything we say delivers instant manifestation. Meaning, the words we speak and the meditations of our hearts instantly pours out what life will be. I had the tendency to speak death upon my life repetitively that it became routine. I have lived with the spirit of depression and didn’t realize that I was making the choice to not praise my worthiness. When people made fun of me or when I was rejected it was a result of the personal conversations I had with myself. What held me back was me alone. Each day we are all faced with the decision to live a life of lack or live abundantly, it is our choice.

 

2 Corinthians 10:3-5 New International Version (NIV)

³ For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. ⁴ The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. ⁵ We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

What I choose in regards to spiritual attacks is to pray, read the word of God, fellowship with others and live a life of accountability. I no longer want depression to rule my every thought. We are all entranced by the history of the story of our lives and many of us don’t realize we control our destiny, we control what is to come. The only way I am going to defeat depression and low self-esteem is by living a life where faith is my only sight. Life has so much to offer and we hold the power to resist the devil and stand on every promise of God. Immediately after the holidays I became physically ill and immediately after my recovery the battle continued in my mind. I chose not to write my blogs because I believed in the lies of my old life. With God I have been made whole. This tells me that I am more than a conqueror and that there is no weapon that can ever be formed against me that will prosper. The battle will never be over until God says that it is over. In the end my life is what I choose not what others choose for me. I control my fate when it is placed in my Father’s hands.

 

James 4:7 New International Version (NIV)

⁷ Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

In this verse the children of God are instructed to resist the devil but, most importantly we must submit ourselves to God and the devil will flee from us. When my focus is not on my true purpose the devil comes to encourage false information that God does not love me and I am not enough. He has told me that I should end my life, keep my head down and be afraid of others. The devil is the father of lies and I am happy to say this: He has no power over me. My power is stored in the house of my Lord and savior Jesus Christ. I expect to be tempted even when I am on top. I know there will be days where I will want to through in the towel but, my options will never go back to the lies which once ruled my thoughts and my heart. Quitting is no longer an option.

Romans 3:23 New International Version (NIV)

²³ for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,

What this means to me is that God’s glory holds all the power and He has gifted us all to take part in his glory. However our nature gets in the way of God’s glory. It is so important for us all to never accept a low vibrational thoughts as truth. They are not apart of God’s glory. These thoughts lead to sin and we all know that sin leads to death.

Romans 6:23 New International Version (NIV)

²³ For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in^[a] Christ Jesus our Lord.

We are living out a spiritual promise and it is our duty to allow God to fulfill His promises in us. I am the first to say that the road through life is not easy but, I can affirm once more that trouble won’t follow when you don’t create it. What we say is more than words. What we say are instant manifestations of our ultimate reality. A choice is more than vapor and I implore you to choose a life where limitations do not exist. Thank you for visiting my site today and reading todays entry. As we move closer to the holidays there is a spark that moves inside of me which makes me proud to be the founder of the Happy Nappy Project (Happiness Project) and it is my hope to encourage anyone who feels like they may not be enough. I’ve always believed that no degree is required to help a fellow human. We are all born under the same design. When we are down and out healing takes place with love for we are NOT broken. I am on a mission!  If you like this post and my site please join me on this mission today! Like this post, read other entries comment on this post and share with the links bellows.

Live knowing that the choices you make can lead to life or lead to death.

With Gratitude,

Miya

 

Why I am Thankful for Judgment

Why must we take baby steps when walking towards our destiny? Obtaining my heart’s content has always felt like placing my feet in crystal clear water, I can feel the healing and nearly see the correct path but, then I give up because there is an enormous rock that separates me from what I want. As if in a dream I take a chisel and try to sculpt whats below me instead of creating a way to remove the barrier indefinitely. In my life I have always looked outwardly so, like most of us I’ve been very quick to judge. I worked tirelessly to make a masterpiece of the rock below me just to discover my own judgement. I’ve crafted Pompeii and like the infamous event in history my spiritual work crumbled. I settled with ancient civilizations within myself due to fear of making life anew for the sake of saving my soul and actually achieving the deepest parts of who I am.
Like most American’s I was born of Christian faith. Being part of the African-American experience has really deepened my relationship with God. Adding personal trails into the mix solidified my union with Christ. One day I looked down below me and could see that it was only God that could remove my struggle. I accepted Christ at an early age. The first thing I felt when I truly heard His name was fear. I knew that God had the power to take me away when He was ready. My fear of God called me into wanting to know who God was. When I began the book of Genesis I saw the things God created. His word formed the heavens and the earth and it was good. God then created life and with it a special kind of man in his likeness. After I read this I was fascinated by God. I thought, “How amazing that I have a Father that gives and takes but, with forgiveness provides a solution for human sin and that solution is Jesus Christ.”
Loving God has taught me to examine myself. When I began to examine who I was I got lost in the value of having a concrete relationship with God. My self-examination nearly drove me to settle with who I was vs who God wanted me to be. I used to believe that if I wasn’t mentally adept, I was worthless. When I redefined what worthless was I became less for God and now I am able to push through habitual forces of my ego. I love that I am now in a place of only trusting God above my own understanding. To stay consistent I keep the word of God with me at all times and I know that Jesus is in my heart operating for me when I am weak. I pray often and I trust in God’s plan above my own. The creator of heaven and earth can’t go wrong because I know my fate was predestined.
Being judged by man and judging ourselves should draw us closer to God. When my mind ignites judgement towards someone else I look inside and ask for God’s correction. When I judge myself I seek God’s provisions by understanding His love for me and thanks to His love I am forgiven. God’s forgiveness helps me to exonerate my temporary perceptions of lack. We are all created by a perfect God which makes us perfectly and wonderfully made. When you want to remove obstruction consider following after the love of your creator. The heart of man wars against God so, try to remember this when testing the validity of the covenant. In the Book of Romans Chapter 7 we discover the true war that we face. Our flesh is in bondage with sin and that makes us war against the laws of God.
Thank you for visiting the happiness project and for reading my post today. This journey has allowed me to yearn for God. To be honest, I introduced this blog with alternative expectations and praise be to God through Jesus Christ I was led back into God’s warm embrace. Like this post, leave a comment and share with this links below. As I continually call for God’s judgement it is my prayer that you find peace and hold onto the true definition of love.

Blessings,

Miya

The Walk of Faith

Imagine you’ve worked for a company for 10 year’s. You’ve been in the same position not because you lacked the experience to excel to the next level but, due to other criteria’s that you may or may not have met. In life I was always told that it is not what you know it is who you know. I tripped and fell on this logic the first few years of my working experience. Due to my own insecurities I wasn’t favored by management in nearly every position I’ve had. In high school I worked at Friendly’s and my co-workers treated me as if I were someone who deserved to be kicked down and forgotten about. I was ignored and it certainly did not make me feel worthy. I can now forgive them for I didn’t understand the role I played. As I grew older my walk with Christ solidified a different course for my purpose in the workforce. In the middle of my 20’s I was introduced to the idea of walking by faith and not by sight. While I am still young I am able to walk in the fullness of His grace by trusting in what is unseen.

One day in late December 2010 my cell phone rang. I was about to go into the movies to see the IMAX version of Disney’s Tron with my cousin. I answered the phone, its Wells Fargo. I was offered a position and would start after the New Year. I was so elated that night because I was unemployed and my unemployment benefits had just run out. I remember thinking how perfect God was at that moment. When January of 2011 hit I began working at Wells as a teller. After my training I was assigned to work at the Wells Fargo location in Jenkintown, Pa. I instantly connected with the Lead teller there and we are still great friends today. One day she and a few other employee’s told me that the service manager did not know how I was selected to work there because he did not hire me. I knew who did though, it was my Heavenly Father. My first year at Wells I became one of the top tellers in the Mont Co region. I was then promoted to work in back-office handling distributions internationally. In my second year I was promoted to work in International Check Collections. One piece of information that I recall hearing from fellow co-workers is that it was highly unlikely to obtain a position in back office. I was also told that you have to know someone in order to be considered for a position with corporate.  In the back office of my mind I said, “Oh, but you don’t know the God I serve.”

After obtaining my Associate of Arts in Information Technology, I felt the need to shift my career towards something I worked very hard to get. My father was diagnosed with end-stage heart failure and from there the shift of hard times motivated me to follow what I felt was deemed right by God. I left Wells and began working for Comcast after taking a short leave to care for my father and what I can only call my own descent into suffering. On my first day at Comcast I was so happy and stricken with a feeling that I hadn’t experienced in a long while which was a, “Right time, Right place,” kind of feeling. I knew that working for Comcast was part of my destiny. Not to say I won’t always work for this wonderful company but, I understand that my path is meticulously crafted by God. As God seeks my heart I can feel a different kind of calling towards greener pastures. I credit this calling to my faith.

In my walk of faith I have stumbled many times but thankfully, it is God who orchestrates my life. God knew that one day I would say, “Yes Lord, have your way.” I have tried to live life according to my understanding for over 20 years and after all the dust had settled God was all that was left and I am happy to see that light by knowing God is all that I need. As a woman of faith I know God was not dismayed by me being lost in the wilderness. What has kept me progressing towards spiritually higher places was my faith through the love of Jesus Christ. The reason I hold my head high today is because I am confident in the covenant made by God that he became man to sacrifice His life for our sins. The word sin is not a dirty word, it only means the fall of man. The fall of man is linked to the feelings that arise when love is not in the midst. God’s love offers a forgiveness that encourages me to trust the covenant over my own understanding and work far beyond my will so that HIS will is the only thing that is done. Ladies and Gentleman I encourage you to reap the benefits of walking by faith and not by sight.

Thank you for visiting my page today. I hope this message will be able to encourage anyone that may be struggling with the subject of faith. It is natural to question God but, when you submit yourself as a student under God the spiritual disciplines will help you seek first the kingdom of heaven and His righteousness (ref. Matthew 6:33 NIV).  When you do this your new walk will be the evidence of all you cannot see. Deep down you’ll have this feeling that God is just and because of this whom shall you fear? Like this post and check out other Happiness Project archived blogs, comment below, follow me on my journey and share with the links attached.

Walk By Faith,

Miya

Will You Walk Through the Fire?

You are free once you release the giants in your mind. You never realize the beasts that are roaming free controlling your every thought until you try at something you love. Personally I love to write and sing. I also love to take ownership of new challenges. I am not a novice when it comes to maximizing the rewards of my life experiences. Every moment I was able to forgive I rewarded myself with key points to understand those I interact with daily. Those key points allow me to instantly love everyone I meet and the love I carry comes directly from the seeds of Jesus Christ. Like a stolen secret, I kept the things I loved locked inside of me. I chose the path of least resistant because I feared the outside world would not accept me.

Last night I went to bible study and surprisingly enough I went on the night of Baptism. God’s ways are unpredictable for when I arrived at the church and saw the title of the sermon, “A Different Kind of Fire”, I instantly knew that there would indeed be a message that was destined to sink into my heart to help carry me through every dark encounter. I have been a woman of weak faith up until the day I was baptized. Last night’s experience ran full circle to match the current level of my faith. As I watched many members be baptized one by one I felt like I too was dipped into the holy water with them. Every time I endure the fire it is Jesus who pulls me deep into the waters of God. That said, I am no longer afraid to be consumed because the flames I have are made of everlasting love. If something or someone is not for me then it will be removed or it will not happen; I am in firm agreement with this.

One of my dear friends is in Ministry and from afar I’ve always marveled the power of God in her life. To hear her powerful voice speak over the microphone confirmed a new level of faith I have been owning recently. After my baptism in 2005 I knew, thanks to Gods warning, that my son would be carried back to God. For one week I laid up in a hospital bed at Pennsylvania Hospital knowing that I would lose him. In the early morning hours of my birthday God told me that it was time. From the moment I was baptized I had read up to Micah in the bible at that time and for that reason I named my son Micah. Interestingly enough Micah’s prophecies were directed towards the people of Jerusalem and one of his prophecies revealed that the Messiah would be born in the town of Bethlehem.  Naming my son Micah for me, meant that Jesus would be present at times when I don’t always feel him near.

As I gave birth to my son all I could hear was “You Survived” by James Fortune and Fiya. God speaks in the present and I want people to know that whatever you are going through all is well now. You can cry and ask why to God but, that level of faith will never allow you to accept that the fire is good for you. I play video games frequently and one of my vintage fav’s is Mario. When Mario collects the super star it makes him invincible and if you defeat many enemy’s you gain an extra life, a 1 up. The love of God makes me invincible. I speak power for anyone that has trouble believing that there are no weapons that are formed against you that will prosper. The struggle is over you just have to believe that what does not kill you will only make you stronger. I testify from my own experience that there is purpose in your situation. If something hurts let it because we are purposed for greatness!

Thank you for visiting and reading this blog and all other entries. I want to get this message out to anyone who is having trouble dealing with situations that weigh heavily on the heart. I want you to know that all is well NOW, you must speak whatever you desire into existence. Consider celebrating the hard times because the person on the other side of the fence is you. I declare in Jesus name that you have won the battle, please learn to react triumphantly. Like this post, leave your comments, follow The Happiness Project and share with the links below.

Walk Through the Fire,

Miya

Once Upon a Time, My Journey

Growing up I was always unsure of who I was and my place in the world. I did more than second guess my choices I sat back and allowed my life to follow a destructive path and for quite some time I called my actions love. I marveled the lives of other people like a child full of excitement outside of a department store’s Christmas display and like the most unlikely child I “Just knew” that I would never have a life of prosperity. I am thankful for new sight because I now understand that the outcome of what I can see comes directly from my heart. My heart has truly been a lonely hunter for so long that I began to believe that I was part of a race that God rejected. I lived in tune with the vibration I thought was my destiny. The friends I had or lack thereof taught me about the inner conditions of my world. My story continues today not by ending with my challenges but, by me proving to myself that it is God’s forgiveness which, has conquered all, that I am meant to see ALL that does not sit right with my spiritual being.

Once upon a time, I always loved hearing that at the beginning of a fairytale. I was always eager to read what challenges the main character would have to face and the perseverance that kept the resolution alive in their hearts. Life is a dream, I can say this proudly at 37 and it is up to us to remember that when all hope is lost that our dreams will never fade. Throughout every experience I told myself that I was never good enough until the day I realized by God’s design that the devil was already conquered. I am now able to appreciate the negative information given to me. Whatever I can see can and will be conquered if and when there is discord in my heart. My story does not end with a negative thought, it prospers as a congratulatory notification welcoming me to my next level.

The happily ever after in my story is what sums up everything I fight through to reach my fullest potential. My happily ever after resides in the actions I take to defeat indifference. Credit to my cousin, my mentor, for teaching me that every negative thought should be addressed and when addressed we should know that we have the right to make the choice on what controls us. I love being able to feel forgiveness when I was not able to comprehend the smudge on my lenses. I dust off the lies and see the truth with a brand new understanding that God’s gift was so that we could ALWAYS live an abundant life. I wake up every morning feeling blessed because the world has a different shade of possibilities for me and it is my prayer that everyone could be able to feel the same if not better!

Thank you for visiting my blog today. I want to know your Once Upon A Time story to discuss our experiences so that we can all move toward finding joy through all situations.  Please share your thoughts, like this post and share using the links below. Also, follow me on this journey so together we can make a difference!

Live Freely,

Miya

The Day I Learned to Walk by Faith

Has there ever been a time in your life when the world around you went completely dark and all you could see were the horrible results of the issues of your heart? The other night this happened to me. I couldn’t sleep at all because my mind was racing like an engine. I kept thinking about the book that I have been working on and then I thought about the possibility of my dreams never coming into existence. Though I was in the dark, my mind seemed to highlight where I am spiritually. I grasped a deeper meaning from the world within as it pertains to what I can visually account for. The credit I can withdraw from this awakening is appreciation for being able to understand faith more profoundly.  In Hebrews 11:1 we are given wise counsel for our lives: Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. ² This is what the ancients were commended for.

When asked what do you see, what are the first words that come into your mind? For me and all human life forms that answer would be the landscape of what we can view with our eyes. To briefly explain I will add what I can see at this very moment while I am typing. First, I see the computer I am typing on and second I can gaze out of my window. Earlier this morning the clouds were dark and ominous like in an old black and white horror film. Rain was pouring down and after a while the condensation continued its travels across the northern sky. After an hour passed peace was once again restored for the sun is now shining and the sky is promisingly blue. My vision prophesied to me the truth of what life is to every being on the planet. In life storms will roll in and certain storms have a direct path of destruction but, one thing is certain storms fade away and whatever was destroyed can and will be renewed once more.

Our eyes don’t deceive us because our eyes tell the truth about the internal conditions of our heart as it pertains to the level of our faith. If your heart is filled with unforgiveness be prepared to have a life where your exterior will carry the spirit of unforgiveness through your experiences with others and even self-reflective unforgiveness. This works in the same manner for anger, lust, vanity, and love. God is a God of order so when you live with any indifference outside of Gods ordinance be prepared to pay a heavy price.  For a very long time I did not understand this but, I am thankful to God that I can see with brand new eyes that what I can see tells me more about the battle I am fighting within. Defiance separates us from discipline and we will never reach our greatest potential with lack of self-control. We can choose to accept that our lives are under a Rulers hands that shows us mercy when we make the choice to accept His will for our lives or we can follow the laws of the flesh. From what I’ve collected through the word of God and personal experience, the wages of the flesh lead to sin and sin leads to death.

I am not certain if anyone else can live knowing that level of responsibility and continue to ignore the calling of the will of our Maker. I know that for me, God’s words have been in my heart since I was a little girl. I feared God as I should and through personal trials and tribulations I learned to trust in the Lord and to defend His Name. Jehovah Jireh is what I have learned throughout my life and I pray that whomever this message is meant to touch may the truth be written on their hearts today. Thank you Lord for using me and leading me into my calling. I thank and appreciate all who have read my entry today. Let’s start a discussion on what our surroundings are and how it may relate to how one may feel internally. Like this post, follow the Happiness Project and share with the links attached.

Live by Faith,

Miya