I am Perfect, I am Whole, & I am Complete

1 Peter 5:10 New International Version (NIV)

10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

Put into the fire I have come out perfect, whole and complete thanks to the grace of God. A few weeks ago I had a very therapeutic conversation with my cousin regarding years of feelings that I had towards her and other family members. I held a personal grudge of jealousy because I wasn’t blessed with good looks, a small figure and my parents we not affluent by any means. I used to believe that my life in comparison to theirs was less interesting which, always made me feel left out when we had family functions. My vernacular wasn’t expansive and my life experiences were, in my mind, not worthy of addressing because I felt I didn’t have the educational background to offer the wisdom I carried. Due to those feelings I fell silent. I believed that my looks and what I lacked was enough for me to stay in the shadows so no one would ever notice me. The conversation we had lifted and removed years of  low self-esteem. Thanks be to God my cousin reminded me to declare daily to myself that I am perfect, I am whole, and I am complete.

I am 37 years of age and up until I was 37 I lived believing that I was ugly. I agreed with others that made fun of me and as a result I assuredly held my head down. Low-self-esteem is a hereditary curse of the enemy. It places a stronghold over your thoughts so that you walk with your head low and your outer reflections feed off of how you feel inside. People around you will make fun of you and even when they aren’t you believe that they laugh at you due to how you look.  We are in a spiritual war I know this is true from experience and more so, the word of God has also stated this truth to help guide us in this valley.

Ephesians 6:11-12 New International Version (NIV)

11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

Now set free I want to help others proclaim what is true. Out loud every day, every mirror you pass proclaim with conviction: “I am perfect, I am whole, and I am complete.” The instructions from the word of God warns us of what we truly wrestle with. God does this because he loves us. I serve a loving God that gives instructions and warnings to his people so that when we are confronted with conflict we know what is true. Your life doesn’t have to be restrained by lies of the enemy. My objective for the coming New Year is to build tactics against the devil by remaining equipped with the full armor of God. The word of God, prayer, fellowship and keeping my personal relationship with my heavenly Father strengthened are most important in my life. Also, administrating the Will of God is my goal for the remainder of my life. I have a heart that seeks God’s will and I know that part of His will involves me loving others as I love myself.  We are perfectly made in the image of God believers and non-believers. Chiefly, God provided a way to fight against the sins we are chained to and that name is Jesus Christ. I am a believer and I declare in Jesus’ name that you are free from the strongholds of privation, free from the strongholds of low self-esteem, free from the evil one and it is all by the grace and mercy of God.

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Let Truth Set You Free,

Miya

The Stronghold of Doubt Cast Over Me

Matthew 21:21 New International Version (NIV)

21 Jesus replied, “Truly I tell you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and it will be done.

There are so many strongholds placed on my spirit daily. Doubt and fear have always seemed to conquer my actions and the force of the two stir constantly inside of me. How I feel at this present moment makes me think about what Paul wrote in Romans 7:15, “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.” I literally hate that fear and doubt sometimes feel like uncontrollable emotions. Lack of faith is a sin against God. God’s word teaches us to fear not and to not doubt, these are two emotions that we can control. I struggle with allowing God to take full control over my weaknesses. I have concluded that it is Christ who makes me strong. When I am weak I must hand my cross over to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I also must remain spiritually fed in his word and for the sake of encouragement I must speak life into every shadow I face.

I used to heavily convince myself that I was punished by God for every sin I’ve ever committed. Every time I was on the right track the road would grow narrow and I fell away from God’s grace. I lost my faith in God and I blamed Him for my misery. Even today I struggle with my unbelief. After I lost everything I owned including the life of my son I was forced to move back in with my parents. For years I felt like a burden because when my depression surfaced I would go to a place that was very hard to pull myself out of. As a result I tried to commit suicide because I believed God hated everything about me. All around me friends and family members would be blessed while I was trapped in a reality where everything was taken from me. It is difficult for me to express how it feels to be an outcast but, I describe it as feeling unloved and unwanted and as a result to those feelings I start to believe the forces of the entire world are against me.

What lifts me back up is when I declare thankfulness to God. I also think of my nephew and how I would feel if he had similar feelings. With Gods guidance I began to thank God for the removal of a spirit that He did not give to me in the first place. I speak over my own thoughts and combat the negative thoughts with the word of God. I believe that God allows me to have these feelings not because He doesn’t love me but, because he wants to show me that I am not in alignment with His promises and He has given me the authority to speak His word over the dark forces that go against me. God pulls me back in when fear and doubt begin to hinder me and I thank Him for this.

When you are afraid or when you have doubts let that be a reminder that those feelings are not a gifted spirit from God but, of the devil. God gives us the authority to cast out negative spirits. Fear and Doubt are apart of human nature and our relationship with sin but, Thanks be to Jesus Christ we don’t have to stop at that connection. We are set free and given the authority to speak over the devil and over ourselves. Encouragement is only a challenge when you don’t know the power you are born with. God will guide you back into his loving grace if you allow Him. I want to encourage anyone who may be dealing with depression or thoughts of suicide. How you feel is valid but, the only way to pull yourself up is to know your power! Know that if you are alive it is not the end, there is purpose in your situation and I believe that the God I know that rains on the just and unjust will see that you prosper. Have faith and be courageous as you walk through the valley of the shadow of death.

Be Bold,

Miya

It’s All About the Children

Mark 10:13-16 New International Version (NIV)

The Little Children and Jesus

13 People were bringing little children to Jesus for him to place his hands on them, but the disciples rebuked them. 14 When Jesus saw this, he was indignant. He said to them, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. 15 Truly I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.” 16 And he took the children in his arms, placed his hands on them and blessed them.

Blessed be the children for God loves their gentle hearts. This weekend I took my nephew and his friends to Sahara Sam’s. I had promised to take him several times in the past but, discredit to my depression I always fell short at fulfilling my promises. I intentionally stayed in my room to hide the shame of not being a reliable person. I had these internal beliefs that were far from the truth of who I truly am. Like the disciples I rebuked children because I was still internally stretched thin from the loss of my son. This weekend reignited the love I’ve always had for children. I listened to them and with discipline allowed them to be themselves. We are to lead our children but, in all honesty I think that in the spiritual sense we learn more from children than they could ever learn from adults. My nephew and his friends broadened my view of how we all should be. Children love freely, imagine without borders, and they just want to play and be happy without restrictions.

This weekend was definitely memorable. My nephew and his two best friends are so intelligent and all three of them love to play video games. However, each of the boys have very different personalities. My nephew is non-confrontational and very introverted. He loves to spend time either with me or by himself. One of his friends is naturally great at everything and he is humble. His other friend is so loving and my nephew treats him like a little brother.  They fight constantly but, they both love being around one another. The two boys, minus my nephew, argued quite a lot over video games and food. My nephew went into his room to be by himself because in his words they were being ridiculous. When I took them to Sahara Sam’s on Saturday one of his friends became ill but, we discovered that it was due to the intense chlorine trapped in the indoor water park. When we got home I made them some food and after they finished eating the boys played video games for a short while before calling it a night. On Sunday morning I took the boys to church. Once again, my nephew wasn’t so much of a fan but, the other boys were excited to go. His one friend even cried a little because he was moved by the sermon. I love it when children are moved by the power of God. Driving home from church the boys clued me in on their perception of me. They told me that I was the best aunt ever and they all agreed that I was so much fun.

At the close of the weekend I had gained a brighter perspective of why children are so special to God and why we must be like children before our Father. Children need constant guidance, they also have certain needs that need to be met such as healthcare, sustenance, lots of love, perpetual support and correction. Discipline is at the top of my list of what a child needs because without it children can grow up accepting misguided ideas which can be harmful as their personalities are hardened as adults. I’ve known plenty of adults who have grown up accepting traits that will never benefit them. We all fall short in areas of obedience. The world tells us that once we’ve reached a certain age we have all the tools to make it in this life with little to no guidance. Also, once we aren’t children any longer we are told to step aside our childish ways and the mistake in this is that though some actions are juvenile, the mind of a child is brilliant and filled with wonder. Children openly seek answers to life’s questions and their imaginations allow them to think outside of the box so that when hard times strike they are able to see the silver lining. Their trust is guided with love and nothing else and I believe this is why God seeks for us to meet him as children. God calls for us to want his guidance, love and protection.

I love these three boys intensely. I thank my sister and God sister for allowing me to spend time with them. I love to see children happy. Like Jesus, I want to wrap them in my arms and love them. I look up to children in many ways because they see the world through different lenses. Adults can easily forget what it was like to be a child. For me, I never was fond of being corrected and that explains why it was so easy for me to go astray. I also thought all things were possible and that I needed correction. I would like to think this is the reason I was reigned back into Gods grace. I am grateful that I was not destroyed because of my disobedience. I learned so much from the boys this weekend. The greatest lesson of all was the confirmation of the discipline I need from my Heavenly Father and the reminder that as a child of God all my Father wants to do is love me and all He wants me to do is trust him without hesitance.

Thank you for reading my blog today. My nephew and his friends expressed how I made them feel but, it was I who learned from them.  I learned the freedom of letting go of the cares of this world by focusing on God and holding onto my hopes and dreams. We must take care of the children for one day they will lead the next generation. Follow The Happiness Project, like this post, leave a comment and share with the links below.

Blessings and Peace,

Miya

I Once Believed in a Lie

2 Timothy 1:7 New International Version (NIV)

For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.

 

It bewilders me that I used to believe in the lies that swirled around in my mind. I settled with thoughts of lack and inadequacy. I allowed the devil to slander my beliefs and I took to heart that I was not enough. “Greater is he that is in me than he that is of the world” (1 John 4:4) and I know from scripture that the one that is of the world is Satan for Jesus states: NLT      “I don’t have much more time to talk to you, because the ruler of this world approaches. He has no power over me.” Last night before going to bed I was certainly attacked by the adversary. The pugnacity was different because I saw through a different lens my old actions. From a different perspective I saw myself how I believe God sees me when I am under spiritual attack. God has gifted his people with the Holy Spirit of which his gifts befall these benefits: power, love and self-discipline.

Last night I was sitting in my bed listening to an awesome internet radio show facilitated by two of my co-workers. While listening I began to reflect on how I used to handle situations. As I already stated, I saw myself how God assesses me. I could feel the love and forgiveness pour out towards me when I thought that I was not pretty or smart. I literally reviewed, as in considered, all of my thought processes and acts of low self-esteem. Now I have a conclusion and that is, my path with God is one of an abundance of love. God truly does call on those who are weak and I humbly take heed to His wise counsel. I have been lied to by the enemy, by the devil, for much of my life. I took full responsibility for the years I believed that I was predestined to fail. My flesh may be weak but, it is God who has saved me and gives me strength. With the gifts God gives me I am able to say with power, “Get behind me Satan, You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns” (Matthew 16:23).

The devil in all his craftiness used where I fell short in hopes that I would never attain the life God has for me. I blamed myself for how I felt and settled into my own filthy thoughts. Credit to the devil I once thought that I could save myself and that God was not real, at one point in my life. God spoke loud and clear each time I fell from His grace. I trusted my flesh and the results were damaging that’s why I can say with Truth that ONLY GOD can save me. Not a man, not my family, not my friends, not the money in my bank account, not the way I look, not the way I speak and contemplate (Though I was blessed with a beautiful mind), not myself, it is ONLY GOD who has authority over my fate. I know that I was told a lie because I can turn around and see God’s promises ahead of me and feel His forgiveness behind me.

Bless and keep these words I say as a living witness of God’s grace. Thank you for reading my entry today. Follow the Happiness Project, like this post, leave your comments and share with the links below.

Stay Strong,

Miya

The Tribe I Belong To

Isaiah 43:1 New International Version (NIV)

Israel’s Only Savior

43 But now, this is what the Lord says—     he who created you, Jacob,     he who formed you, Israel: “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;     I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

Exemplifying trust in God has been a great and challenging journey. I’ve read biblical text like a midnight train. When I did this I expected God to work for me and for all of my cares to be cast into a furnace. I’ve tested God many times just so he could prove how much he loved me. I can remember days not so long ago when I used to wake up and immediately question God’s loyalty instead of giving him proper praise. “Why God?” was the constant outcry that I poured out of my heart many times. God has said, “No”, an insurmountable amount of times that, like a child, I stomped my feet and was not willing to accept that my will and God’s Will were similar to oil and water.

I remember when I was in my early 20’s God spoke to me and He said,

“I have a different plan for your life but, I will allow you to stray away. Remember I love you and I know you will return to me with a story to tell. I will be waiting with open arms and a forgiving heart.”

When I first heard this I thought that I was losing sense of the reality I built with God. I believed in my heart that I would never discount the friendship that I assembled with the Holy Spirit. Once released into the wilderness I lost my way and placed my trust in God’s hatred towards me. When relationships or places of employment were not right for me it was God who blocked any harm that may have risen from the situations and/or people. God’s constraints on his blessings worked out in his favor the day I surrendered my all to Him. In the spirit of truth I am lead to bless the Lord and today I want to discuss about the tribe I belong to.

Whenever I think of the word Tribe I see a group of indigenous people working together to love and protect an unspoken covenant. My family was built on the gospel of truth so, it is highly anticipated that the devil would try very hard to deceive those who belong to God. When I really became of the world I thought that God was supposed to swoop in and pull me out of my own mess by launching me into a paradise provided in this life. I thought that my enemies would see me and be put to shame. God saw it differently however for, I was left to contemplate every sin.  Without God I can do nothing. I can’t write, sing, speak freely with power, praise Him and all of my external relationships are null and void. My alignment with sin nearly cost my life. But, thanks be to God for He has enlightened me with the truth that I belong to Him alone. His ownership is not something that I can run from nor do I want to any longer. The tribe of a Gentile is the lineage I claim.

I fought with God when I wanted relationships to work out in my favor. I consistently cried when people had to be shown an exit because either I was no good for them or they were no good for me, the constituents have no honor because it was all according to God’s Will. God would rather I be alone than live one day without me praising His name and I bless my Father for this. I am overjoyed that my negative patterns did not have the power to destroy me. When you are called for a specific purpose God will stand between us and the object of our affection. God truly is a jealous God and we don’t always understand His methods but, all of our mess, all of our worries, all of our destructive efforts work out for a greater good. I surrender all to the tribe I belong to.

Thank you for visiting and reading today. I’ve always had the inner belief that believers and non-believers all have a purpose. As a member of the Christian faith I recognize and accept with joy that God causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous (Mark 5:45 NIV). Access to His abundance does not mean that the troubles of the world will be left behind. If life seems to be on a continuous downward spiral consider trusting in a God who offers assurance of a paradise and the gift of the Holy Spirit to help us through the hard times. Always remember that the difficulties we face are there to build something new in us. It is our choice to follow ways that lead to artificial abundance, our way, or concrete infinite abundance, God’s way. For me, the choice wasn’t easy but, I would rather live having nothing loving God than live being disconnected from God.

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Live United in Faith,

Miya

To Judge or Not to Judge

Matthew 7 New International Version (NIV)

Judging Others

“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

I am a Christian so, automatically people may think that I, like many other Christians, are quick to judge. In the very beginning of my walk with Christ I judged incorrectly. I mislead others by providing my suggestions of what was right and wrong in my sight. Pastoral care is integral for, I am thankful that I have found a church home where my pastor humbles himself before God. By reading the word and being lead towards the spirit while listening to the word I have been given new sights of who God is and who I should be as a child of God. The first time I read, “Judge lest not be judged,” I misinterpreted the meaning of judgment. My initial understanding was to judge not ever the sins of someone else. My perceptions pushed me to engage in sinful actions because I was not strengthened with the knowledge that judging does serve a purpose. After Jesus prompt’s us not to judge he orders us in Matthew 7:5 NLT Hypocrite! First remove the log in your own eye; then you will see well enough to deal with the speck in your friend’s eye.  By not connecting the two verses I enslaved myself with ideas that I am supposed to humble my ways before the flesh. I served sin by accepting ways that I knew would lead to spiritual damage. After praying for God’s forgiveness he was able to open my eyes so that I could see what was true.

When certain truths which are shameful are illuminated I immediately want to run in shame. I used to purposefully hide my darkest secrets because I feared what people would think of me. From childhood to adulthood I can see the transformation of how I lived. As a child I openly trusted any and every one and this lasted until I was an adult. I trusted that even in my ignorance God would bless me. There is a twist to this illogical practice however; God made it all work out for his God.  God allowed my ignorance to bring be to my knees so that I could submit all of my selfishness to Him. Now when I judge others it is on the basis of the sin their actions may lead and with an understanding that all wages are handled by God. God’s Words are there to correct and guide us towards a more abundant life. Judgment naturally feels wrong when someone else is pointing the finger but, I see light in assessing the viewpoints of the object giving the correction. A soul should be disciplined. How we manage the judgment is by first turning towards the Kingdom of heaven and then requesting lucidity from God. The joy of having a relationship with God helps me to understand this verse with every weakness I face, “Yes, ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it!”(John 14:14).

Daily I am faced with a usurped amount of challenges as is everyone. When I misunderstood judgment it held me back. I believed that I had reached the pinnacle of what I could understand and lost hope in my own purpose. My relationship with God has a superfluous definition in how I relate to the world within. As Jesus continues to sweep in with his blood to cleanse all things that lead to death I am transformed with new hope. I’ve never claimed perfection in fact, I am notorious for disowning it but, I can proudly proclaim the perfection of undoubtedly knowing Christ moves within me. By God’s grace I am transformed to understand what His law under judgment means.

Thank you for visiting my page today. I pray that everyone is properly guided when it involves the true word of God and I hope that we all can access the abundant life of joy waiting for us under His Laws. Follow the Happiness Project Like this post, comment below and share with the links attached.

Live in True Freedom,

Miya

What Servitude Means to Me

My love for God encourages my longing for others to have peace. I was marked by God but, could not see the blessings for what they were so, I assumed I was cursed with feelings of wanting to “fix” situations outside of my own life. This assumption left me with outward feelings of rejection because I did not recognize that I was the culprit. I fought my way into the goblin city and was confronted with the enemy. There by a dying tree my flesh was enslaved by the devil. I actively contested the truth of God and in the ethereal world I warred against myself. By becoming nothing under God I was able to immediately transform my thoughts, the things I said and my actions. To be humble under God is to serve others. I’ve misinterpreted this for a long time. The one true sacrifice that positively impacts our purpose is giving our lives over to God. I used to sacrifice in the name of other human being’s whom I called family and friend. I nearly killed myself for the sake of reviving greatness in someone else. Thankfully, my misinterpretations have not suppressed the many opportunities for clarity as I delve deeper into understanding the predestined maze within.

Our ego is the enemy, our ego, what I believe, is part of the devil. We are told that in the beginning of mankind our flesh longed to know the difference between good and evil and in doing so lead us all down the path of original sin. In current times Christianity isn’t lost but, there is so much confusion regarding the laws of God that it has caused people to actually move further away from the passion of wanting to individually know God and His laws. I am completely thankful to God that he continues to show me the way back to His heart. In doing so God has opened doors for me so that I can better understand where his Goodness comes from as it relates to the good works I do externally. My captivity made me trust in my good works, judge my own short-comings and condemn myself to death inwardly so that everyone I encountered would feel the weight of the world I was truly living with. My inner need for peace forced people to break away from my “brokenness” meanwhile, I dragged at their feet so I could be a companion avatar of happiness for them.

One day God tapped me on the right shoulder with his voice and said, “Child get up from this brokenness.” When I heard his voice I shuttered with fear for I knew the power that was in my masters hands. I was so afraid that I told myself I would rather play with paper dolls than obtain the better life waiting for me. Thankfully, God has shown me that I was gifted to live and until I get to my final resting place judgment over my servitude is in God’s hands. Guilt evaporates because I am no longer the faithful doormat that has to please all the people all of the time. I am liberated to pleasing only God all of the time. My good works for others are always first and foremost under the authority of my heavenly father. Words are funny because they hold all the power of what lies ahead. When words have no foundation we end up falling short. I’ve tried placing myself and others as my foundation and the kingdom within always caved. I built up my own logic and called it correct so every day I lived off of pride for, I believed I was the only one who knew what was best. I did everything in the name of Miya and not in the name of Jesus. I thank God for humbling my ways. Now I operate from his power by reading the word and praying to combat old habits that don’t belong in the next level of what God has for me. The reputation of death means that I can live anew. My willingness to serve comes from my heavenly Father of whom I live to confirm his good works in me.

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Stay Encouraged,

Miya

Why I am Thankful for Judgment

Why must we take baby steps when walking towards our destiny? Obtaining my heart’s content has always felt like placing my feet in crystal clear water, I can feel the healing and nearly see the correct path but, then I give up because there is an enormous rock that separates me from what I want. As if in a dream I take a chisel and try to sculpt whats below me instead of creating a way to remove the barrier indefinitely. In my life I have always looked outwardly so, like most of us I’ve been very quick to judge. I worked tirelessly to make a masterpiece of the rock below me just to discover my own judgement. I’ve crafted Pompeii and like the infamous event in history my spiritual work crumbled. I settled with ancient civilizations within myself due to fear of making life anew for the sake of saving my soul and actually achieving the deepest parts of who I am.
Like most American’s I was born of Christian faith. Being part of the African-American experience has really deepened my relationship with God. Adding personal trails into the mix solidified my union with Christ. One day I looked down below me and could see that it was only God that could remove my struggle. I accepted Christ at an early age. The first thing I felt when I truly heard His name was fear. I knew that God had the power to take me away when He was ready. My fear of God called me into wanting to know who God was. When I began the book of Genesis I saw the things God created. His word formed the heavens and the earth and it was good. God then created life and with it a special kind of man in his likeness. After I read this I was fascinated by God. I thought, “How amazing that I have a Father that gives and takes but, with forgiveness provides a solution for human sin and that solution is Jesus Christ.”
Loving God has taught me to examine myself. When I began to examine who I was I got lost in the value of having a concrete relationship with God. My self-examination nearly drove me to settle with who I was vs who God wanted me to be. I used to believe that if I wasn’t mentally adept, I was worthless. When I redefined what worthless was I became less for God and now I am able to push through habitual forces of my ego. I love that I am now in a place of only trusting God above my own understanding. To stay consistent I keep the word of God with me at all times and I know that Jesus is in my heart operating for me when I am weak. I pray often and I trust in God’s plan above my own. The creator of heaven and earth can’t go wrong because I know my fate was predestined.
Being judged by man and judging ourselves should draw us closer to God. When my mind ignites judgement towards someone else I look inside and ask for God’s correction. When I judge myself I seek God’s provisions by understanding His love for me and thanks to His love I am forgiven. God’s forgiveness helps me to exonerate my temporary perceptions of lack. We are all created by a perfect God which makes us perfectly and wonderfully made. When you want to remove obstruction consider following after the love of your creator. The heart of man wars against God so, try to remember this when testing the validity of the covenant. In the Book of Romans Chapter 7 we discover the true war that we face. Our flesh is in bondage with sin and that makes us war against the laws of God.
Thank you for visiting the happiness project and for reading my post today. This journey has allowed me to yearn for God. To be honest, I introduced this blog with alternative expectations and praise be to God through Jesus Christ I was led back into God’s warm embrace. Like this post, leave a comment and share with this links below. As I continually call for God’s judgement it is my prayer that you find peace and hold onto the true definition of love.

Blessings,

Miya

The Walk of Faith

Imagine you’ve worked for a company for 10 year’s. You’ve been in the same position not because you lacked the experience to excel to the next level but, due to other criteria’s that you may or may not have met. In life I was always told that it is not what you know it is who you know. I tripped and fell on this logic the first few years of my working experience. Due to my own insecurities I wasn’t favored by management in nearly every position I’ve had. In high school I worked at Friendly’s and my co-workers treated me as if I were someone who deserved to be kicked down and forgotten about. I was ignored and it certainly did not make me feel worthy. I can now forgive them for I didn’t understand the role I played. As I grew older my walk with Christ solidified a different course for my purpose in the workforce. In the middle of my 20’s I was introduced to the idea of walking by faith and not by sight. While I am still young I am able to walk in the fullness of His grace by trusting in what is unseen.

One day in late December 2010 my cell phone rang. I was about to go into the movies to see the IMAX version of Disney’s Tron with my cousin. I answered the phone, its Wells Fargo. I was offered a position and would start after the New Year. I was so elated that night because I was unemployed and my unemployment benefits had just run out. I remember thinking how perfect God was at that moment. When January of 2011 hit I began working at Wells as a teller. After my training I was assigned to work at the Wells Fargo location in Jenkintown, Pa. I instantly connected with the Lead teller there and we are still great friends today. One day she and a few other employee’s told me that the service manager did not know how I was selected to work there because he did not hire me. I knew who did though, it was my Heavenly Father. My first year at Wells I became one of the top tellers in the Mont Co region. I was then promoted to work in back-office handling distributions internationally. In my second year I was promoted to work in International Check Collections. One piece of information that I recall hearing from fellow co-workers is that it was highly unlikely to obtain a position in back office. I was also told that you have to know someone in order to be considered for a position with corporate.  In the back office of my mind I said, “Oh, but you don’t know the God I serve.”

After obtaining my Associate of Arts in Information Technology, I felt the need to shift my career towards something I worked very hard to get. My father was diagnosed with end-stage heart failure and from there the shift of hard times motivated me to follow what I felt was deemed right by God. I left Wells and began working for Comcast after taking a short leave to care for my father and what I can only call my own descent into suffering. On my first day at Comcast I was so happy and stricken with a feeling that I hadn’t experienced in a long while which was a, “Right time, Right place,” kind of feeling. I knew that working for Comcast was part of my destiny. Not to say I won’t always work for this wonderful company but, I understand that my path is meticulously crafted by God. As God seeks my heart I can feel a different kind of calling towards greener pastures. I credit this calling to my faith.

In my walk of faith I have stumbled many times but thankfully, it is God who orchestrates my life. God knew that one day I would say, “Yes Lord, have your way.” I have tried to live life according to my understanding for over 20 years and after all the dust had settled God was all that was left and I am happy to see that light by knowing God is all that I need. As a woman of faith I know God was not dismayed by me being lost in the wilderness. What has kept me progressing towards spiritually higher places was my faith through the love of Jesus Christ. The reason I hold my head high today is because I am confident in the covenant made by God that he became man to sacrifice His life for our sins. The word sin is not a dirty word, it only means the fall of man. The fall of man is linked to the feelings that arise when love is not in the midst. God’s love offers a forgiveness that encourages me to trust the covenant over my own understanding and work far beyond my will so that HIS will is the only thing that is done. Ladies and Gentleman I encourage you to reap the benefits of walking by faith and not by sight.

Thank you for visiting my page today. I hope this message will be able to encourage anyone that may be struggling with the subject of faith. It is natural to question God but, when you submit yourself as a student under God the spiritual disciplines will help you seek first the kingdom of heaven and His righteousness (ref. Matthew 6:33 NIV).  When you do this your new walk will be the evidence of all you cannot see. Deep down you’ll have this feeling that God is just and because of this whom shall you fear? Like this post and check out other Happiness Project archived blogs, comment below, follow me on my journey and share with the links attached.

Walk By Faith,

Miya

Will You Walk Through the Fire?

You are free once you release the giants in your mind. You never realize the beasts that are roaming free controlling your every thought until you try at something you love. Personally I love to write and sing. I also love to take ownership of new challenges. I am not a novice when it comes to maximizing the rewards of my life experiences. Every moment I was able to forgive I rewarded myself with key points to understand those I interact with daily. Those key points allow me to instantly love everyone I meet and the love I carry comes directly from the seeds of Jesus Christ. Like a stolen secret, I kept the things I loved locked inside of me. I chose the path of least resistant because I feared the outside world would not accept me.

Last night I went to bible study and surprisingly enough I went on the night of Baptism. God’s ways are unpredictable for when I arrived at the church and saw the title of the sermon, “A Different Kind of Fire”, I instantly knew that there would indeed be a message that was destined to sink into my heart to help carry me through every dark encounter. I have been a woman of weak faith up until the day I was baptized. Last night’s experience ran full circle to match the current level of my faith. As I watched many members be baptized one by one I felt like I too was dipped into the holy water with them. Every time I endure the fire it is Jesus who pulls me deep into the waters of God. That said, I am no longer afraid to be consumed because the flames I have are made of everlasting love. If something or someone is not for me then it will be removed or it will not happen; I am in firm agreement with this.

One of my dear friends is in Ministry and from afar I’ve always marveled the power of God in her life. To hear her powerful voice speak over the microphone confirmed a new level of faith I have been owning recently. After my baptism in 2005 I knew, thanks to Gods warning, that my son would be carried back to God. For one week I laid up in a hospital bed at Pennsylvania Hospital knowing that I would lose him. In the early morning hours of my birthday God told me that it was time. From the moment I was baptized I had read up to Micah in the bible at that time and for that reason I named my son Micah. Interestingly enough Micah’s prophecies were directed towards the people of Jerusalem and one of his prophecies revealed that the Messiah would be born in the town of Bethlehem.  Naming my son Micah for me, meant that Jesus would be present at times when I don’t always feel him near.

As I gave birth to my son all I could hear was “You Survived” by James Fortune and Fiya. God speaks in the present and I want people to know that whatever you are going through all is well now. You can cry and ask why to God but, that level of faith will never allow you to accept that the fire is good for you. I play video games frequently and one of my vintage fav’s is Mario. When Mario collects the super star it makes him invincible and if you defeat many enemy’s you gain an extra life, a 1 up. The love of God makes me invincible. I speak power for anyone that has trouble believing that there are no weapons that are formed against you that will prosper. The struggle is over you just have to believe that what does not kill you will only make you stronger. I testify from my own experience that there is purpose in your situation. If something hurts let it because we are purposed for greatness!

Thank you for visiting and reading this blog and all other entries. I want to get this message out to anyone who is having trouble dealing with situations that weigh heavily on the heart. I want you to know that all is well NOW, you must speak whatever you desire into existence. Consider celebrating the hard times because the person on the other side of the fence is you. I declare in Jesus name that you have won the battle, please learn to react triumphantly. Like this post, leave your comments, follow The Happiness Project and share with the links below.

Walk Through the Fire,

Miya