The Bleeding Heart Finally Caught My Attention

Ephesians 6:12 New International Version (NIV)

12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

I often wish  I could go back to the day when I sold myself the lie that caused me to hate the sound of my voice, despise my tested integrity and reject the opportunities to love whenever I  passed my reflections. I really do. I try so hard to get around my hindrances but, there is always this one question that seems to linger when no one else is around. How can I began to fix what could never be broken in the first place? If you are willing to unlock the secrets to your own heart know that the unlocking comes with a price. The price I had to pay began with the need to tend to my bleeding heart. Happiness is often something we are told we cannot search for. I’ve discovered a different path to that answer. Happiness is something we can search for but, it can only be found from within. In my truth, the heart bursts with forces that can serve or harm our individual universe. My heart was bleeding and the rhythm of its bleeding has caught my full attention.

In my world external judgment was designed by way of the art of show and tell. People are defined by their appearance, we then connect the way they appear to a particular nostalgia and then we place each appearance into a category just so we can accept or reject a person, place, and/or thing. If I am wearing clothing that appears to be dirty then much of the time I will be viewed as homeless or financially inept. I hadn’t realized that I had stepped into the pit of sharp glass of  this reality until I recalled the first “ism” in my life; the first time I began to build the bridge away from self-love and acceptance. Show and Tell taught me that I should, in this order: hate my color, hate my mind, hate my race, hate my image, and hate the audio vibrations that I’ve created in this world. The most heart breaking out of these, I  learned to hate my differences. This incorrect information caused my heart to bleed for ages in a valley where other people got lost with me.  Set free and able to move forward, I now see my world clearer. The ideas in which I’ve collected in my past were just floating words that got caught up in my imagination and as I patch up an already complete heart I am beginning to see the soul of my perfection.

My future looks brighter because it is I who designs the information for my acceptance. The heart is a substance we should never learn to  ignore. The issue with my heart has been resolved and now I am able and willing to see the completion of my hopes and dreams in this life. My heart no longer bleeds for I have allowed healing to take its place. Prepare yourself for the adventure of happiness as you dive deeper into the caves within the ego. If you resonate with me, like and comment below. Follow me on my happiness journey and share with the attached links.

A river flows by the forces behind it, the things we cannot see. Like a river, there are similar forces at work behind the human heart and what a careless tragedy it is when we don’t take the time to tend to our forces?

Miya

How the War was Won

2 Chronicles 20:17 New International Version (NIV)

17 You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.’”

Dead things ripped their way throughout the Kingdom of Miyatropolis killing what little light that did remain after the war was nearing an end. The darkness that was once promised to perish throughout infinity never came. She was nearing her end of her child-bearing years and for this she had succumb to the dark ruler and key holder of false illumination. She shrugged tremendously and decided that those promises that were presented by the image of a tiny seed whose light was delightfully bright, seemed to have no magic in it at all. Darkness has a powerful mindset and that is to win. This is my battle, this is my song, and this is the story of how I conquered the evil that lingers inside of us all.

Though we can’t see it we are at war with ourselves. We attack our character and like watching a television program our lives play out right before us… right before me. Sight, touch, sound, and taste are what connects us to what we can see. What we can’t see is always challenged. I once believed we were designed to live with brokenness. I once felt that what I went through had to determine my level of financial success. The pain, the upsets, the low self-esteem that I’ve collected from my past played out before me and my daily intent became past life experiences. I have paid my dues in this spiritual war. Those scars burn deep inside of me and it wasn’t until I turned it around into a story that I was able to see the victory.

Back inside the Kingdom of Miyatropolis the young heart was aging. The dark creatures that lurked through the caverns had begun to settle down. Myta, the Dark Ruler had won in his eyes so, he went off to plan for the final takeover. Just another victory for the agents of transgression. There were only shreds left of the Kingdom that remained and then something brilliant arose. The seed began to attach itself to the walls like a liquid and then it began digging its way deep into the foundations of Miyatropolis so deep that its vines began to rapidly restore a near hopeless dominion. The Dark Ruler devised a plan in secret and the key target was to destroy the seed so that the heart of the Kingdom would never know what it was capable of which is, limitations don’t exist because the battle is already won. The seed uprooted into a powerful figure. His eyes were filled with glorious light more brilliant than anyone could ever comprehend. This light brought life and banished the devices of the Dark Ruler. In the end when the Evil Ruler, Myta, had succumb to this loving power he was forgiven. The powerful Lord spoke unto the Kingdom and out of his mouth all was restored. Myta had asked why he was pardoned and what this Lord of Lords name was. The Lord looked up with a blazing glare and declared, “You were saved because you will continue to help build strength in the Kingdom my Father has prepared. Because of your hatred you will never know me and your citizenship will never be welcomed in Miyatropolis.”    Hope and life were restored to the Kingdom. Though there were many battles after this one, the permeated faith of Miyatropolis majestically transformed every challenge into an instant victory.

Now that I’ve had time to meditate on the war inside I affirm that my beliefs are a subconscious experience which manifests immediately. This short story allowed me to sum up the inner turmoil that I once gave permission to control my destiny in a negative way. Ultimately we do control our destiny. Some people run from financial success due to their fear of turning into a narcissistic monster. I was once in that category with some people. I can courageously fill my life with purpose and some things that I used to view as demeaning like being financially prosperous, is now attached to my abundance. My history has become my shiny tools that I proudly wear as a victory, not a defeat. We truly are more than conquerors and I think this so because I’ve gone through a mighty battle and I’ve graciously lived to tell my tale of triumph. I’m living and pushing everyday creating the best life experience with each breath that I take. Who I was yesterday does not define who I am today. Who I was yesterday defines what I’ve conquered. Who I am tomorrow is designed today. The joke to me in this logic is that I’ve been doing this since my conscious level of awareness.

Thank you for visiting my blog today. As you inhale and exhale be careful to count your blessings by realizing your every breath is faith in action. Follow the Happy Nappy Project, like this post, leave a comment and share with the links below.

Be Authentically you!

Miya

Meditations on Who I Serve

 

 

Matthew 6:24 New International Version (NIV)

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.

On the surface I displayed the internal war which remained dominate in my heart and mind. Externally those I aligned with I used to blame for mistreating me. In truth however, it was me who was the orchestrator of my symphony. Over the weekend I did a lot of meditating with the intentions of seeing how I played the role at self-sabotaging my life. When I began to feel great discomfort in my heart I gave it a name and called it fear. I questioned myself by saying, “What am I so afraid of?” The laundry list of what and or who I was afraid of began piling up. I had come to the conclusion that there have been many times where I gave negative information power and that power ingrained in my belief system. I gave power to emotions that carried the spirit of depression and low self-esteem. I have come to a prevailing revelation, one I’ve danced with before; I create my ultimate reality. There seems to be two sides in which we have the power and authority to choose, life or death.

I affirm that we all battle with different spirits. We live in a society where the dominate reality implements subtle concepts which downloads tons of information for the human brain to consider. However, it is our perception which governs our dominate reality. This is a truth which was very hard for me to digest because I was so used to every cause ruling my every effect. I am the first to hold myself accountable for my diverse views because how I view my outer reality tells me everything I need to know about myself. The great news about knowing who you are is that we have the power to change how we think and how we feel by surveying life-giving or life-taking words before they plunder out of our mouths.

Philippians  4:8 New International Version (NIV)

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

We are currently in the season of giving. The spirit of Christmas brings forth joy and peace. Christ gave his life and around this time we are able to experience the gift of peace which passes all understanding. When we give gifts to one another there is an exchange of love, gratitude and humility. My personal gift to give this season is displayed through my actions when I share what I what strikes my passion and that is the determination that we can find joy through all of life’s ups and downs.  There is a great connection to freedom when we know that we have the authority to change our lives from within. Follow the Happy Nappy Project, like this post, comment and share with the links below.

Walk steadily with your head held high using faith as your guide

Miya