Over the Labor Day Weekend I stayed in a Condo at Wildwood Crest, NJ. Once again nature has won me over and provided a few sacred lessons for me all involving a life that I chose that had little to no room for dreaming. I held myself back for years by finding comfort in blaming others. It ends today for, today I live in the land of infinite possibilities. One: I am a threat to a lot of women because I have my own voice and I am happy. Two: Fear is a wonderful emotion that I can embrace and not run from. Three: If my thoughts lead to a condition, then let it go and allow God to take over. Four: Every life force has its place and we should get used to trusting the universe by being still. And Five: One of my dreams was buried at the beach over the weekend.
I had an amazing weekend. I casually say amazing because I can’t internally search for any word greater than that word is for me. I got to run through the beach in the rain. I ran towards the ocean and not away where it was safe. I thought a lot about my dreams. What I want for my future and what I am willing to do to make my dreams happen. I have to say goodbye to a lot of conditional junk. I used to wonder why out of the two variants of gender women can be so hateful towards one another. I can remember when I used to put my head down because I feared what the pretty girls would say about me in front of the “cool” guys they were around. As I grew older I started to get different responses from men. When I was at my best I was like a magnet to men and when I was at my worst, the weird creeps were ever-present in my decembers. But females, they still found ways to put me down. I’ve heard you look like a man, I look like I am someone’s grandmother, my makeup looks weird, down to me being basic and dumb and of course the almighty fat shaming. I learned this weekend that I am a woman who has always had her own voice. I am strong, intelligent, and funny and so much more than anyone could understand. To the ladies out there it is better for you to support each other’s strengths than for you to bash a fellow woman down to the level of your own weaknesses. Strength is not a threat, it is a promise so, rise up and take your promise Queens!
Another thing nature taught me over the weekend is that it is ok to be afraid. When fear is present it means you are closer to your dream than you thought. A dream goes beyond your wildest expectations and the effort you put into it will lead to a lot of downs that are there to ask your spirit, how bad do you want the dream to come into fruition? As I mentioned, I ran in the rain towards the ocean. I heard the storm warning alarms and I slightly ignored them. All I wanted to do was allow the rain to beat on my face so I could feel the warm salt water erase the lotion from my face. I wanted to close my eyes and get swept away in what it feels like to be motionless through a storm. I felt like a care-free child all over again because I didn’t have a care in the world that was greater than that moment. The more I make myself happy I began to see a world with fewer conditions.
If my thoughts lead to a condition, then let it go and allow God to take over. Sunday night I lay in bed thinking of all the things that strengthen me and none of those things matter when there is a condition. I can sometimes look down on my potential because I struggle to find the right words to say. I get caught up into thoughts that don’t serve me. When my conditions are present the right words to say reside in those who have an advanced vocabulary. When I think of the person who can say it better I pause my progress. I limit the power of God by letting my will get in the way. Conditional thinking surely doesn’t help a dream when you want it to soar. That night I went to bed to the lullaby of my creator. Not only do I understand my purpose, I also understand that my entire life up until this moment and moving forward will always be in the hands of God’s will. When I ask what God’s will is for my life; it is one of great responsibility. I expect to fall many times for, when I fall I am better equipped for what God has promised.
Every life force has its place and we should get used to trusting the universe by being still. It’s interesting that I learned this lesson on the 4th day of September. The number four in numerology connects us to consciousness and awareness. The day after the storm, the sun still rose, the birds got up to gather their rations and most fascinating, the tiny ocean dwellers washed up to the shore. Horseshoe crabs and hermit crabs don’t run when they are washed up on the beach, they stand still and trust their place in nature. There is little to no movement they wait for the tides to take them back in to the ocean, be a source for the survival of another ocean life form and/or use their bodies weight to burrow into the sand to continue their own purpose. What would life be like if we were still through things outside of our control?
The final lesson taught by nature; I can literally bury a dream. I can bury it, nurture it with love, sit back and watch my desires come to pass. Our desires can give us what we want in love or give us all that we fear and regardless of the outcome it is all according to God’s will. Push past your own limited conditional thinking and know that God freely gives us the desires of our hearts. God’s unconditional support allows us to experience what we think can spiritually destroy us and that support protects us so that, we are able to live and see another day. Count your blessings and let your blessings be part of your daily grace. Limited thinking disconnects the understanding that everything from the issues of life to the celebrations serves a purpose. Don’t waste your time on what you have no control over. Believe in yourself and like me, be bold and bury a dream wherever you feel most at home.
I offer my gratitude for reading my blog today. This weekend was compiled with synchronicity and abundance. There are a few things I said would happen before the summer came to an end and it is really amazing to see something that you hope for come to you in perfect alignment. Gratitude is key in life and I really advise you dive in the spirit of being grateful for the life you were given. Things can look bad but, I promise it’s all for a purpose. When you can’t express gratitude get off the high horse of the ego and lift someone else up. I vow to myself to give myself more time to examine all the puzzle pieces in my life that doesn’t fit with my greatest potential. I hope everyone had a great Labor Day Weekend. What has nature taught you and what advice would you give to seekers of this life. Like, or comment and share with the links below. Also follow The Happy Nappy Project. May we all find ways to make this life better starting today.
With Gratitude,
Miya
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